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Dear Diary,
Hey... Ahm. I don't know what to write first. It's my first time writing a diary... Well, I searched earlier about the meaning of it and it says it's a book that has the daily record of events and experiences. So, I will just write what happened earlier.
My mom went home. She seemed not in herself but when I approached her, she smiled widely. Her face looked happy but I can sensed something in her eyes, they are red and swollen diary. Was she crying? Again?
My mom may not say things to me, but I knew. I know that she's not happy with my father. I also don't know the story behind it but I guess I have a clue. I found a black notebook in my mom's closet the other day. I opened it and saw a picture on the first page. It's a younger version of my mom with a guy hugging him from behind. The man feels so familiar to me I don't know. I was curious who he was so I continued to flip the pages... and there I read everything but I couldn't understand them all. Still, I came into a conclusion that my mom loved this man so much. She had her great love, but she isn't destined to him. Now I know why my parents are not that sweet, they looked like just an acquaintance to me.
I don't know what to feel now diary especially that I knew my name was after that guy my mom once loved.
Wait, my yaya is calling me already. I just stop it here diary. Bye.
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Dear Diary,
Diary, you know what? I searched for my mom's diary last night and I couldn't believe what I saw. There's a new entry diary. And as the curious child that I was, I read it even if it's bad.
I don't know diary but I cried after reading it. My mom's broken but she didn't let us see it. She's been through a lot, and she's even more suffering now because she can't be with the man she still loves diary. She can't be with him because she's afraid it might hurt me. She always cares about what I feel. But what about her?
I guess I'm not like the other children who gets emotionally ill if their family gets broken. I dont know but I can see both perspectives. I don't only see what's visible, I also visualize the bigger picture. Maybe, at my young age... I can do something to make my mom happy. She's everything to me. Plus my parents aren't happy with each other so I will find that man. And I'll bring them back together.
