Crush Diary

Diary #6

(Girl's)

Dear Diary,

"Do you like me?"

I knew my face was as thick as my books! I couldn't even believe why I asked that stupid question! And at that very moment, I was melting from embarrassment, even praying to be melted literally. I was about to rejoice because someone has interrupted us, but when I heard what that girl said, my heart started to shrink.

"Sorry to burst your bubble but he won't like a boring girl like you!"

Those were the exact words she stated. I could feel my heart raced from pain. All students in the bus seemed to heard her and started to focus their attention on her-- us. I just shrugged it off, faced the window and pretended as if I didn't hear anything, as if I wasn't affected and hurting. She's making a scene and I would not give her the satisfaction. I heard my crush shooed her away and that triggered her even more. She started shouting at me and calling me names. I remained still even though in my mind I was already strangling her to death. So psycho of me.

He pushed her slowly but she only slapped his arms. She then went near me and looked at me as if I was just a mud on her shoe. She called me names again and that cut the patience I've been holding together. I stood up and leveled her eyes.

"I know many things about you biatch. So shut up or else..."

That was a psychological statement. I didn't know if it'd work but she got paled. I smirked at her.

"Cat got your tongue?" I teased her. I was about to talk more but she shrieked like a monster. Is she that crazy over heels with this guy? Or maybe she's the girlfriend that's why she's acting this way?

I checked her from head to toe and well, it's pretty hard to admit but I felt insecure seeing her looked so classy unlike me, a boring girl with glasses. I just get slapped by reality.  Boys usually like girls screaming with sophistication, and since I don't have that kind of visuals, it's really impossible for him to like a boring girl like me.

(Boy's)

Dear Diary,

Damn. My mind literally went blank after she threw that question. I couldn't find words to answer it! Of course, I like her but it was so hard to tell it verbally! So frustrating!

I was composing my words mentally when my classmate who's crazy over me interrupted. F.ck! I saw how her eyes changed into something I couldn't name. How dare this girl say those thing to her! I got freakin' scared seeing her switched into her snobby aura. She then faced the window and pretended as if this brat wasn't making a commotion.

I admired her even more because of how she handled the atmosphere. She looked so calm even, if i know, her insides weren't. I pushed this trash away but she just slapped my arms and went near her. I became more scared as I saw my crush stood up having this dull eyes. F.ck this girl who stole away the brightness in her eyes!

But dude! My heart raced after I heard her blackmailing that trash indirectly. Woah, I was impressed and now I like her even more that I badly wanted to confess but I just couldn't. I was rooting for her, but I shouldn't let her be in a cat fight.

Wait-- what? It was so fast that I didn't notice she already slapped that trash! I lost control of myself because I just found myself pulling her hand. Damn, felt so good. She looked at me and I saw something in her eyes, it was brokenness and it pained me. Darn it.

She's about to pull her hand away but I held it tighter.

"Release my hand."

No. My grip tightened. This may sounded so cheesy but it really felt like I was holding my own kind of universe, but I knew I was just a dust on her vast galaxies.

I felt her squeezed my hand a bit. Was she holding me back? Fudge!!! Argh, this tickling feeling again! I wanted to run and shout at the top of my lungs just to release this fluttery feeling in my stomach. Just a simple move from this girl and I easily went crazy!

The bitch was going hysterical again. But my eyes still glued at the girl I was holding. She's about to answer back but----

"No! Don't stoop down to her level ---"

All I wanted was just to stop her but my mouth betrayed me and I slipped.

"--- I like you, okay!"

And... everyone went into silence.