It is real? -ᴍɪɴꜱᴜɴɢ- ✔

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-Jisung's P.O.V-
"I really loved Chan, and I let him go, because my mom said so.. WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?" Minho said as he started crying so bad

"Calm down" I said softly

"H..How can I?.."

"Just.. talk with me, say what happened, open up to me, cause' you know, once you say it it's becoming easier"

"I.. don't know how to start, I don't even know what happened, how can I say if I don't know what to say"

"Try"

"She.. washed your brain.."

"What?" Minho asked

"She literally washed your brain" I said again

"I don't understand"

"She beat you, saying that that's what gays deserve, gave you away from her for one month to a homophobic pastor who put you doing strange rituals and prayers and washed you with holy water everyday and made you sleep on a wood until you realized that being gay isn't good, then after you came back from the pastor she sent you to a homophobic psychologist and you don't remember much of what you did there but you know that you came back with different feelings and thoughts about homosexuality, and you became homophobic because you were mostly afraid of your mom and because you hated all it happened to you and you thought that the fault was being gay and now, when you moved out, you started feeling and thinking differently? Right?"

"Yes.." Minho said realizing how bad it actually was

"Omg Minho SHE WASHED YOUR BRAIN IS SHE EVEN A MOM?"

"I don't know how to respond"

"That's.. terrifying.. are you still talking with her?" I asked

"I..do"

"Why?"

"Because.. she is my mom?"

"Doesn't seem like.."

".." He didn't said anything

"You know that what she did is awful right? You know that what she 'taught' you isn't true. Right?"

"I'm begging to realize, but I don't know why now?" He asked

"Maybe something changed your mind?"

"Or maybe someone.."

"What?" I asked

"Nothing, ignore it"

I heard what Minho said even if I gave him the impression that I haven't.

".."

".."

We sat in silence, but it wasn't awkward (silence), it was comfortable and relaxing, I liked it

"Are we ok?" Minho asked

"What do you mean?"

"You didn't talk to me a few days, maybe even a week. Why?"

"Well.."

".."

"After you said that homophobic phrase, I felt hurt, because.. you know.."

"Oh.. It was because I insulted your friend's relationship.. sorry, I bet they are a cute couple"

I gave him a 'wth' face and then said

"No, it's not that" I said

"It's not?" He said confused

"No, it's because I am like my friend"

"Like your friend? You mean gay?"

"Yeah.."

"Not a surprise" He said relaxed

"W-What? What do you mean?!"

"I kinda suspected you already after I saw your fan page for me" He smirked

"F-Fan page? Hahah, what fan page? I don't have a fan page, why would I?" I said panicked

"Yeah, sure you don't have, @lee.minho_choke.me_pls"

I choked in the air and without looking at him I said "Ahem.. That's my friend's fan page! A-A-And how did you knew about it anyway?" I tried to loook calm

"You should put a password in your phone next time"

"EH, WHY DID YOU LOOKED INTO MY PHONE?"

"And you should clean your gallery.. I stayed traumatized since then.. W-Why do you have those photos and videos with those two kpop males?"

"I AM A TAEKOOK STAN, WHAT CAN I DO?" I smiled innocently

We spend the night talking with each other about small and silly topics and ended up falling asleep in my room.