It's a cold universe

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Milly's view:

After I end my call with Chris I felt surprisingly good. I never thought that I would. Yes, he was right, he hurted my feelings and so on but I still missing him. Suddenly my phone beeps:

One message from: Unknown

Brexton Street 32,
Hampshire, London

Just for our meeting tomorrow. Hope yo still want to see me.
Good night, Chris!

After I read his message I feel my heartbeat, which had raisened with every word I read. Damn me! I feel for him the same way I felt before our ways have seperated. Fast I write back a short agreement and called Linda once again. I told her about the meeting tomorrow and she was happy that I decided that way. Straight after the call, I changed my clothes and fast hopping in the bed to sleep, because honestly I'm very nervous what will happen the next day.

Dream:

I open my eyes and stand in a crowd of people, who are jumping screaming and singing along. Fast I recognise my best internet friend Emma beside me and she shoutes at me:,, C' mon Milly! Sing the lyrics! You know it! It's one of your fav songs!

The sound of Hurts like heaven  finds my ear and slowly I start to sing the chorus:

When you use your heart as a weapon, than it hurts like heaven

I start jumping with the crowd and than the last sounds faded. Suddenly Chris' voice catches my attention:

,,We have the best fans in the whole wide world. But I have to say something to a special girl on the floor. Milly?¨

Fast everyone stops jumping and nearly 50.000 heads are turning to me, including Emma and the boys.
Shy as I am, I try not becoming red and nodd a bit.

,,You're a sunshine, the sun after a heavy rainstorm. I love you!¨, he says with one of the cutest smiles I've ever seen.
But there is one thing I need to say too! People look at her, she just took adventage from me, because now she can tell the whole world a huge story. She isn't a real fan!¨

What the hell is going on here?
I realise that my eyes filling itselves with tears and not one minute later they run all over my face. The crowd is yelling now, but I don't hear anything, because I cover my ears. Fast as I can I run to the exit to escape this horrorfying place. The peoples are shouting at me something like Slut, or What a dissappointment for the band.

On a lonly place I kneel down and cry as load as I can.

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I wake up with a scream and finding myselve alone in my bed. What the hell did I just dreamt?
Chris emberassed me infront of everyone?  He never could do something like this. It's not his personality!

After I take a hankerchief, to wipe away my real tears, I take a look at my phone: 3:42 am in the morning
Wow, I need to go back to sleep again.
Than I lay back in my bed again, with a pillow in the right hand and try to fall asleep once agan. Hopefully with better dreams now!

Chris' view:

It's nearly 4 am in the moring and I can't sleep. Of course I'm at Jonny's place once again, because I don't want to sleep alone and I need to prepare for tomorrow. That's also the fact, why I can't sleep. I think to much about the next day.
Will she like my idea or will she be cold with her feelings because she is already closed with me? I don't know! The only thing I know is that I need to sleep, but I can't.

I close my eyes and start to sing very quiet:

For a second I was in control
I had it once I lost it though and all along
The fire below would raise.

And I wish you could have let me know,
What's really going on below
I lost you now, you let me go but one last time

Tell me you love me
If you don't than lie, lie to me

I remember once a upon a time
When I was yours and you were blind,
The fire with sparkle in your eyes would be mine
Tell me you love......

Suddenly somebody is knocking at the door and Jonny's deep voice sounds through it:
,,Chris, please it's 4 am. I need to sleep and you too. Now good night!

I take a deep sigh and turning to the left side.

Call it true, call it true love
Goodnight Milly Jenkins!
I love you!

The next morning:

I wake up at 9 am and walking straight in the kitchen.
After Jonny and I had a great breakfast with pancakes and Nutella he asks me why in hell, I sang last night. I explained him the reason and after that I left his flat, with my jacket and stuff I need for the meeting today.

I went straight to my flat and taking a shower. It was really a better idea than I thought and I think I stand nearly half an hour under it.
The hours pass by and soon the moment was here. I'll meet Milly after our argument.
I stand at the place, where we both should meet each other.
Suddenly a black cap stoppes 300 metres away from me and a young woman leaves it.
Milly Jenkins!