fuck and dump

October

one month into school and I feel like a different person. I have way more freedom then I've ever had in my life. I drive myself to school, stay there for a few hours, then go to work and after head home to call it a day. I've realized that threw out my day my mom no longer tracks me to make sure I go to class or show up to work on time. I am able to grab lunch with lisa and sometimes Shawn before heading to work. just last week I skipped work and went to the mall! I feel like such a baby being happy about skipping work but its the truth. my mom has been up my ass the moment I was born and now that I finally have some freedom I love it.  if you told me a month ago that I would have all this freedom no way in hell would I believe you.

my friend Sophie had asked if I was able to take her to school one morning. since I was up and ready to go I said sure, and I honestly love driving so why not! I pick her up on a Monday and were just talking about the randomness things.

"do you watch Chicago med?" she asked me

"yeah sometimes but my favorite is Chicago fire"

" omg yes that ones so good. I love Kelly, he's so hot"

we laugh it off as we continue to drive. we have to radio on and am partly listen to it. at one point the radio host tells listeners to call I and tell there story of something they did and never told their parents about.

"I should call" Sophie said

"why? what are you hiding from your mom?"

now I was expecting her to say something like she broke her favoret vase, or she's the one that put the red shirt in with all the whites, or she took the $20 off her dresser. but no. what she said next almost cause me to crash the car.

"I pieced my nipples like 2 years ago and never told her"

hold up, you mean to tell me you let someone put a piece of  meddle into your nipples? one of the most sensitive parts of your body you pierced? how could you be sitting still right now? aren't they killing you?

"what!! no I don't believe you! did it hurt?" I asked all the questions that I could think of in that very moment.

laughingly replied " getting them didn't hurt but the healing did I couldn't go without a bra for like 2 weeks afterwards. ill tell you one thing though, the best thing abut them is when my boyfriend sucks on them!"

that got me thinking, hmmm maybe if I pierced my nipples then maybe someone will want to suck mine

"where did you go to get them done?" I asked

"this guy in Getty square, he does it out of him apartment I think its like $30 each"

hmmm $60 to get my nips pierced, I mean like what have I got to lose, if my mother finds out I'm sure she wont be that mad about it and puls ill be 18 in 2 months ill tell her I got it then.

"do you still have the guys number?" I embarrassly asked

"yeah why? you want to get yours done?"

"i'm thinking about it" I told her

Sophie's class started 30 minuets before mine which gave me the perfect chance to look up side effect of a nipple piercing. apparently nothing bad  really happens. as long as you take them out once you find out your pregnant the holes should close up and you can breast feed normally. if they don't nothing bad happens but you will get more leakage. after reading about it there seemed to be more pros then cons about getting them pierced.

I walk into our first class of the day and sit next to lisa.

"I have to tell you something" I whisper in her ear