Core beliefs *Thor x Loki*

Dangerously low

When he was a teenager, he had many sleepless nights. Asking himself why did he allow himself to fall in love with Thor. He's supposed to be his brother. Even though he was adopted, Thor considered Loki to be his true brother. God, he hated that word! It made him feel disgusting. His father is going to be raging and his mother, his poor mother, if she finds out it will break her heart. He will lose his family. Everyone will hate him.

Why Thor of all Asgardians? He constantly talks how he's going to kill Frost Giants, not knowing that his ''brother'' is actually one of them.

When they were kids, he used to hide behind Thor's back if someone or something scared him. But then, Thor turned into someone to be afraid of.

If he found out that I'm Frost Giant too, he will kill me, young Loki thought to himself. The pain would become unbearable and he would cry himself to sleep. Afraid of the future and his own family, he decided to never reveal his feelings or his true form to anyone, especially Thor. He grew up to become God of mischief, cunning, coldhearted, bad Loki. His love and ancestry made him an easy target for Thanos.

After dreaming about his past, Loki woke up on the floor. It took him a moment to remember what happened last night. He slapped himself loosely a couple of times and rubbed his eyes. Shower, he thought.

-Let's shower and forget about everything.- Loki whispered. Usual drill whenever something disturbed his peace. Not even kiss that he dreamed about his whole life is going to destroy what he worked so hard on. New family, new life, new friends and new Loki. Happier Loki!

I finally stopped hating myself and then this happens... Even though Thor kissed him, not vice versa, Loki felt embarrassed and disgusted by himself. It made him feel guilty. Thor was probably drunk or bored. Or both. It wouldn't be the first time for him to toy with someone's heart.

After he was done showering he went through his closet, looking for comfortable clothes. Peter introduced him to hoodies and sweatpants. So Loki bought himself a couple of those, black and green of course. After choosing black hoodie and black sweatpants, he didn't bother to get socks. It was raining outside but the floor was warm thanks to Tony and his heaters. Loki remembered that he has work to do with Bruce today so he left his room and walked down to the kitchen.

-Croissants, o yeah!- he mumbled and shoved one in the mouth. Quill gave him some good music to listen to, so he put in wireless Stark earbuds and connected them to Stark phone. Loki was really thankful for Quill's gift, especially on days like this one. Awesome mix was helping him to bring back the good mood. And to stop thinking about the past. And Thor.

Loki put croissants and tea on the kitchen table and started eating while staring at the rain. He tucked a strand of hair behind an ear so he can eat without getting tangled up. It would always surprise him how silky and straight his hair turn to be after Nat started taking care of it. A couple of strands were still curly because of braids from the last night. But the air is moist so those will disappear soon.

His body froze as he sensed a familiar smell. While he was staring at the rain, consumed by his thoughts and Quill's music, someone was staring at him.

-What the...? How long have you been here?- he asked, surprised to see Thor standing a few meters away. Keep it together, Loki! Act normal.

-I was already here when you... I was in the corner... God help me.- he whispered in the end.

-What?- Loki asked.

He decided to play it cool. Stay cold, no matter what happens. 

Without a single word, Thor grabbed Loki's hand and started dragging him around the house.