Give me your soul | Bts vampire ff

Chapter 22

It was like you had been asleep for ages when you felt your eyelids slowly beginning to move up and down. You didn't wake up in pain, actually you woke up in something cozy and soft so you assumed it was a bed since you couldn't really see clearly yet. Your gaze fell on a window in the room and you did see how it looked outside despite your blurry sight; it was black. Completely dark. Only a few stars were shining. That meant that you either slept just a few hours or 24 hours. Damn.

You wanted to rub your knuckles onto your eyes by habit, but you couldn't move your arms. Shocked you stared at your body to realize that your arms was tied above your head while you ankles were tied together by some kind of ribbon, so it didn't hurt, but you couldn't move.

Wait, had you tried to kill yourself?

Tears filled your eyes when you remembered what you tried to do, but this time you didn't cry because of that you had failed like you did before. Now you cried because you couldn't understand how you could do something like that. Or, yes you understood exactly why you wanted to do it; all the fear and anger had spread inside your body and you could no longer control it.

However, you're now scared of yourself, scared since you're apparently able to do things like that. The guys must be worried af and if they hadn't stopped you, you wouldn't be alive right now.

What if it happens again? What if you lose control again?
It isn't the first time this happens...

The thought of what would happen to the boys if you died never crossed your mind and you didn't think of the consequences. But now when you stared up at the ceiling, it was the only thought that refused to leave your head.

The war would happen either way since FL would be boiling of anger if you died. How could you be so selfish?

And also, if you died, it would mean that you gave up. Your mom would win even if she's dead and you would be forever remembered as a weak little human girl that only existed in purpose of feeding vampires.

"YAH!" You yelled since you didn't care who came into the room, just someone. Tears rolled down your cheeks as Jimin after some seconds peeked in his head into your room to make sure it was safe. When he saw your swollen eyes he rushed towards you and furrowed his eyebrows worried.

He didn't know what to say. Sorry? How are you? What is it? Are you okay? He had no clue if you still thought about killing yourself so he kept quiet, but you didn't.

"I'm so s-sorry." You sobbed and for the first time in your life you saw a tear running from one of Jimin's eye, down his cheek. He softly smiled a tiny smile and quickly dried the tear away with his hand while reaching out to tie up the ribbon on your ankles and then your wrist. At first you were surprised that he released you because of the things you've done, but then you realized; he did it because he trusted you that much. However you didn't know if that was a good decision.

He sat down in the middle of the bed while you sat up in front of him, staring at him with big and red eyes. You were too afraid to hug him since you didn't know how he would react and somehow he understood that since his words made you almost cry even more.

"Come here." He softly said, as he stretched out his arms waiting for you to hug him. And so you did. You wrapped your arms around his neck as he wrapped his around your waist, pulling you closer.

The hug was stronger than anything you've ever known, it was like holding him wasn't quite enough, you had to feel every ounce that you're pressed into, ever ounce that is he. In that moment of feeling Jimin so close to you made you somehow feel more alive than you had been in so very long.

"Shh... It's okay." He caressed your back with one of his hands while you buried your face in his neck, crying out all the tears you had left.

"I didn't... My mom... It wasn't... FL has ... Please..." you wanted to say so many things but non of them came out from your mouth. It all just became a mess of words but he refused to let go of you.