Tom's pov: D-damn my head hurts and all i remember is that Y/n is in hospital, i sit up in bed and look at my phone it was around 3:30 in the morning "shhhhhiit!" i groaned in pain as i get up, it feels like months since he was only put into hospital. i open my door as slowly and quietly as possible but they were down stairs already including that stupid commie bastard! the only reason i put of up with him is because of Y/n, anyway i get down the stairs to see Tord in the kitchen with some stuff in a bag on the side. Then I did something I didn't think I would do in a million years. i lent on Tord's shoulder and sobbed, he must of been surprised to be honest it was a shocker to my self really. naturally it was in Edd and Matt's instinct to come in for group hug but it felt empty with out Y/n.
Y/n ...
Y/n.....
Y/n........
Y/n!!!!!!
Y/N!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why did this have to happen to YOU of all people!!!!!!!!!!!!
why could of been Edduardo or THAT COMMIE BASTARD!!
why.... did this happen to you, why could of been me instead of you....
why did u do this to me?
we visit him when we get the chance and he just lays there with drips, heart monitors attached to him, a desk on the wall facing the window with stuff that we had left for him, his hair was longer then it was so i bought him some hair bands and some hair clips, as well as some Smirnoff, Edd brought some doodles he did for him, and Matt brought him a couple of his nick knacks as for Tord he brought him a letter.
some times i trace my fingers on his arm and feel the etchings in his skin and some times wonder what i could of done to stop if from doing harm to him self.
i play Susan( my bass guitar) from time to time but mostly when i'm sad or depressed, I've never really played any songs or wrote any but the strum of the strings makes me feel better. i remember one Christmas i brought him a checker board ukulele he was so happy when he opened my gift it made me smile alot.
/flash back/
*its Christmas day and you and the gang are sat on the floor near the tree with presents for each person*
Edd: We should take it turn give out presents, so we will start with Y/n! he says smiling.
Y/n: Ok! you say in glee.
Edd passed u his gift, it had green wrapping with a green ribbon tied on the top with your favourite coloured tag on it.
"merry Christmas Y/n you've made like one big family again like the old days, from Edd."
you open the present with care, it was a art set with a sketch book some pencils, pen liners and a box a copics.
Y/n: wow copics! thank you edd but these must cost a fortune.
Edd: ur welcome, well i had been saving for a bit and i thought u might like them.
next it was Matt's turn to give you his gift, he was so excited he looked like he could explode with joy.
Matt: i hope you enjoy yours!! he said in glee
you gently tear through the glittery purple wrapping paper and the bow on top, and with a favourite coloured tag to with it. " merry Christmas!! another year of being best friends with best person in the world! lots of hugs Matt".
