Only Beta

1.5

Small.

He wanted to feel small.

Yugyeom had never been small. Many people had assumed that he would either be omega because of his docile nature or alpha for his stature.

Of course neither was the case.

When he was young he had legs, still had legs, but they had always been longer than most. He was almost 130 cm by his first year and now at 20 he was already over 183 cm.

At times, like today, he hated his long legs. Many people had called him so many names for being tall. Giraffe, skyscraper, even being asked the most annoying question "how's the weather up there?" He hated it.

Other days he was fine. He liked being tall. He liked being able to reach things for his pack that they couldn't reach. He liked picking up Mark when he was feeling needy and even giving BamBam piggyback rides.

But now he wanted to be the small one.

He wanted to sit in the Alpha's laps like the Omegas did. He wanted to be patted and coddled. He wanted to lay with someone and play with their fingers while they kissed him softly.

He didn't want his long legs. He wanted to be small and cute and docile.

He sat inside the walk in closet that he shared with BamBam. It was mostly full of the younger's clothes. BamBam was a fashionista, as Jinyoung hadd called him more than once. Yugyeom couldn't understand why he needed this many clothes.

He sighed, searching through his own. He didn't have many oversized jumpers, liking to keep things slightly tight so he could show off for his pack.

But now was not the time for that.

He wanted to be swallowed by the clothes. He wanted to look small. He sighed again, digging through another pile. This was beginning to get frustrating. Just a simple large would be big enough to cover his fingertips the way he wanted them too.

"This is dumb." He mumbled, the pin pricks of angry tears springing to his eyes. If only he was an Omega he would constantly feel small. If only he was an Alpha he wouldn't need to feel small. If only he wasn't a stupid Beta with all these feelings.

"Gyeomie, there you are. What are you doing?" Youngjae's voice shattered his frantic search for way too big clothing. His head whipped up to look at the older Beta.

Youngjae never had the tendencies that Yugyeom did. He was the perfect Beta. He kept the pact intact, kept things complete. He would never be like his hyung.

He made grabby hands at the male, not trusting his voice in this situation. He really did feel like he was going to cry.

Youngjae cooed at the boy, squatting down so he could be level with his baby. He knew that he wouldn't be able to lift the younger like they all used to before he starting putting on muscle.

He was still their cute Gyeomie though.

"What are you looking for sweets?" Yugyeom gestured to the pile of clothes. It was a mess of both his and BamBam's. Youngjae nodded, picking at a piece of fabric. "Okay, and what?" He pulled the boy into his lap, arms wrapping tightly around Yugyeom.

He sighed contentedly. He was already starting to feel better by being in someone else's arms. "Small." He mumbled, pressing his nose into the junction of the older's neck and collarbone, right above his scent gland.

"Small? You wouldn't fit a small." Yugyeom giggled softly. Youngjae had missed what he was trying to say.

"No." He whined, moving his nose across the older's scent gland, the earthy smell soothing him. "Wanna be small." The blonde cooed, pulling the taller closer to his body.

"Awe, my baby. You wanna wear something big yeah?" He nodded, lips carefully pressing soft kisses on tan skin. Youngjae honestly didn't quite get that feeling. He normally saw it with Omegas, wanting to feel small, but not with Betas.

However, Yugyeom was not a normal Beta.

But that was okay.

"Let's find you something. Maybe Mark-hyung has something you can borrow." The older tried to get up but Yugyeom whined, rolling on top of Youngjae, pinning him to the floor.

"Stay." He hummed, lips roaming the blonde's neck. Youngjae sighed, reaching in between Yugyeom and himself to grab his phone. He should've known thT this would happen. The younger tended to get in possessive moods where he only wanted that one person around him always no matter what.

Of course it had to be him.

He quickly dialed Mark. "Hey hyung, could you grab the biggest sweater you have in your closet. It's for Gyeomie." The younger whimpered, laying flat against Youngjae. He really wanted the blonde to pay attention to him. Why was he on the phone with Mark? "Thanks sweetheart. Love you." Youngjae turned to look at the brunette. He was looking directly at the blonde, eyes wide and lips in a pout.

"I love you." He whispered, eyes glistening with tears. He honestly didn't know why he felt this way, why he was being so clingy. He didn't understand why he couldn't be like Youngjae.

Why couldn't he be a normal Beta?

"Because normal Betas are boring. Gyeomie, there's nothing wrong with you, my perfect little Beta." Yugyeom whined, pressing his face into the older's chest, tips of his ears heating up.

Youngjae always knows how to make Yugyeom feel comfortable in his own skin, even if it means cuddling in the middle of his closet while waiting for way too large hoodies.