One Woman Army (Shadowhunters)

Space Between

I sit on the front steps, texting my best friend Evie, who was named after a character in the Descendants series. When she doesn't answer after a few minutes I text her again. When she doesn't answer that text I stand up, grab my packed bag and start the four-block trip to her house. I get there and knock on her door. Her mom answers and directs me to Evie's room. I get there and knock on the door. She opens it and I start singing Space Between from Descendants 2. She joins me and when we finish singing I pull her into a hug and let her cry on me. I then start singing Better Together, also from Descendants 2, hoping to tell her that I'll always be here for her.
"I'm so sorry Evie. I honestly had no idea. I wish you'd told me. I would have come over," I say.
"I thought about it but then I would have to acknowledge that what I'm feeling, and what's happened, is real," she says. I nod.

(Time Skip)
Three weeks later Evie texts me asking why I haven't sat next to her, or even talked to her, in chemistry class for three weeks. When I don't answer she comes over and mom directs her to the Silent City where I'm probably kneeling at my mom's memorial again. Evie is also a shadowhunter but her and her mom have their own place here in New York like mum, Sebastian and I did before dad killed them.
"Clary?" She asks, coming down the stairs and over to where the memorials stand. Little does she know that my family memorials are in a room of their own, away from the others who died for selfish reasons. My family were heroes in the dark war until dad killed them all. We were fighting a war against my own dad and his minions. She follows the sound of cursing, paper ripping, and paper hitting a stone wall.
"You're not supposed to litter in the Silent City," she says, trying to use her sense of humor to cheer me up. It's not working. I'm trying my hand at writing songs and so far I've been successful at writing music but not at writing lyrics.
"What are you doing?" She asks, concerned, picking up the paper that I've scattered around the room and stuffing it all in the trash can.
"I'm trying to write songs but so far I've only been half successful. I come here when I need space or just need to think without my family asking me questions," I explain to her. She nods.
"I understand. Your mom's worried about you. She asked me to hang around and keep my phone near me in case you need to talk to me about anything," Evie says to me. I nod. I look at my watch and sigh.
"Time for me to head home I guess. I really don't want to though," I tell her. She sighs.
"I know but it's dinner time and you need to explain to your mom what you're feeling, just like I had to explain to my mom," she says to me. I pack up my stuff, grab my bag and follow her out of the memorial room and out of the silent city. We walk hand in hand back home and the minute we get back to the institute Jace meets us at the door and pulls me into his arms as I start crying. I sag against him, curl my fingers tight into his shirt, and sob.
"Oh, babe. Why didn't you tell us?" He asks, concerned.
"I didn't want you to think I'm weak and think that the clave should strip me of my runes. I've been a Shadowhunter my whole life and this year is the hardest year ever for me. I lost my entire family and my brain doesn't want to let me process it," I say.

"The clave isn't gonna strip you of your runes and we don't think you're weak. This year is a hard year for shadowhunter nation. Many good hunting families lost someone in the dark war and are still grieving their lost loved ones," my brother says, coming up behind Jace and I and rubbing my back