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26 | lost trust and lost way

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It was hard to sleep that night.

Heck, it was difficult for me to digest everything that the conversation has gone to.

They wanted to talk.

For once, they're going to tell me what happened then.

They are considering letting me in.

I should be grateful, right?

I buried my back on the sheets of the bed and stared blankly into the darkness.

I was thorned between having to meddle with them and having to accomplish my job. Sure, I'm a journalist. I write to live. I write truths. I can't be biased. I needed this for money. I could just write this whole thing down and sell them out.

I could just reveal their story to the world. After all, this is why I'm here in the first place.

But I can't push myself to do it.

Because...

They trust me. Or maybe because they need me.

But do I feel the same way for them? That, I'm not so sure of anymore.

I thought this was just simple. But as I try to go further down I feel like going through a death roller coaster. Before, I was just this woman who works to survive my family. Then I got an opportunity that can bring me good future. The next thing I know, I'm flying off to a foreign land. I found out I was featuring young entrepreneurs who happen to be very generous of taking me to their past.

The twist here is, they have no ordinary past. And the worst of all, I got involved into their horrid past that is awfully including incidents of murder and drugging.

The battle here is safety versus money.

I'm the only outsider that knows and I happen to be a person who works for media yet they are trusting me with everything. It's very suspicious.

Can I trust a potential murderer then?
Can I trust a group of guys I just knew from the surface?
Can I trust them?

I don't have any assurance.

They said it themselves and I was the only blind one not to decipher the scene. Jungkook, as a sixteen year old guy, sneaks out of their house on midnights. Jungkook's mom and dad died due to a still vague reason and were intentionally killed. The brothers have known everything yet they didn't make a move to find justice even if there is a way. It turns out, on the long run, that they are running away from danger. They chose to be safe. Now, some dealers are out there trying to murder them the most painful method they know. The guys said Jungkook wants to avenge his fallen parents but what I don't get is that...why in the actual fuck are the guys hiding when they could've just avenged their parents just there and then? Fuck, they even know how to shoot like it's as easy as reading a book. I have no idea what they have done in the past.

I don't know what 'talking' means to them but I sort of hope that they won't put bullets in my head and burn my lifeless body. I don't know.. the whole vibe of this made me assume that I have no ally on this one. I can't trust anyone but me.

How can I know if they're lying? How can I know if they are telling the truth? How can I assure myself that I could rely on them without them sneaking up on me? Hell, I don't even know if they were selfishly making me a laughing stock.