1 week na nakakaraan simula ng mahuli ko si dave sa condo unit niya. and since then, he never bothered to text or call to explain himself. I haven't told ate yet but I really do want to tell her, I just don't know how or where to start.
ganito pala yung masaktan. ganito pala ang sinasabi ni ate na ayaw niyang maranasan ko. based sa experience ni ate sa first boyfriend niya. they were together for 5 years. she also caught her ex-boyfriend with another girl. nakita ko kung pano nasaktan si ate. she barely eats nor gets enough sleep, she's always crying, always gets herself drunk and worst, she almost try to commit suicide. mahal na mahal kasi ni ate yun. like me, she was young din nung naging boyfriend niya si Darwin. but not as young as I am, she was 16. after Darwin, she never dated anyone. ayaw na daw niyang masaktan.
and clearly yung nangyari kay ate, happened to me too. pero bakit ganun? kahit na niloko ako ni dave, mahal ko parin siya. I still want him, I'm still longing for him. parang isang sorry lang okay na saakin, but why isn't he texting. doesn't he love me anymore? he told me he love me. bakit ang bilis para sakanya na kalimutan ako.
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I'm here at school and I look like a mess! kahit na I wasn't in the mood para pumasok, I have to.
"okay class, I have the results of your exams. and so far, I'm happy with the results. pwera sa isa!"
binigay na ni Ms. Castillo ang mga test papers namin. huli niyang binigay ang saakin. she looked at me with a disappointing look "Ms. Gonzales, I want to talk to you after class." then she proceeded to her desk. I looked at my test, napahilamos ako ng mukha. I got 12 over 70.
KURTS POV
"Ms. Gonzales, I want to talk to you after class." as I heared Ma'am called Sofia, tinignan ko si jelly, who was currently looking at sofia. tinignan ko rin so sofia, I can't help but notice the dark circles under her eyes. siguro hindi siya nakakatulog sa gabi. I wanted to approach her.
"kurt!" si jelly yan, tumingin ako sakanya, "batiin na natin si sofia. I think she needs her friends back." nagdadalawang isip ako, she chose her loving boyfriend who unfortunately, is with another girl now.
flashback
before kuya dave left for his vacation with his new girlfriend, Andrea. he dropped by the house to get some of his stuff. I was shock to see him wrapping his hands around Andrea's waist, and whispering to her while Andrea giggled at what he said.
"kuya, may I speak to you?" I said with annoyance. he nodded, but wasn't leaving Andrea. "Alone, if you don't mind." he glared at but followed me to the kitchen.
"who is that?!" I asked annoyed, "oh that?" he pointed with his thumb "that's Andrea." he added. "and she's your?" I asked. he smirked "girlfriend" he said, ugh! nakakaloka naman ang umbre na itey! pano niya nasasabi yan! to think na friendship ko si sofia!
"girlfriend? and how about sofia? the last time I checked, she is still your girlfriend KUYA!" I said. as he heard Sofia's name, he became uneasy. "um.. just don't tell her." he turned his back on me, and before he left he said something. something that made me feel bad. "oh I forgot, how will you tell her? you turned your back on her didn't you? tapos ngayon you'll act like you care. stop acting like you're a good friend. 'coz a good friend doesn't turn their back on their friends just because they've got a boyfriend. I don't get it kurt, nagalit ka ba dahil ako ang boyfriend ni sofia? o dahil nagboyfriend si sofia."
he has a point, Di ko dapat tinalikuran si sofia. dapat inintindi ko nalang siya. I wasn't a good friend. she was always there when I needed someone to lean on, she never judged me when I told her about my gender. I must talk to her.
present
"class dismissed. see you all tomorrow. Ms.Gonzales, stay." sabi ni Maam. Jelly and I stood up. "hintayin natin si sofia sa labas" jelly looked at me joyfully "really? babatiin na natin siya?" she squealed, I nodded and smiled. we waited for sofia patiently, what is taking her so long. sumilip ako sa classroom, and I saw her na palabas na ng room.
as soon as she got out of the room, "okay jelly, I know you're excited and all but let me talk to her firs..." pero di ko natapos ang sasabihin ko, "hi fia, bati na tayo! yey!" jelly squealed. napahampas ako sa noo ko.
Sofia's face lighten up. "really?" sabi niya at tumingin sakin. I saw the black circles underneath her eyes, her hair was a mess, and her nose was red, I bet kakatapos lang niya umiyak, I nodded and hugged her "sorry, sorry di kita inintindi. tinalikuran kita at jinudge kita, just like everyone else. I left you when you needed me the most. sorry kasi.."
di na ako natapos sa sinabi ko kasi nagdrama na si jelly, pinapaypayan pa niya yung mata niya, "I'm so gonna cry! this is too emotional! I can't breathe! omg! omg! o. m..." i cut her off "ituloy mo yang drama mo jelly! nagmomomentum ako dito, e!" we all laughed and hugged it out.
"no worries kurty, ang importante okay na tayo. i missed you both! can i have another hug? i really need it now." sofia said, but still you could notice the sadness in her voice.
