surreal

have you ever

have you ever felt
out of breath
out of place
within a crowd?

have you ever felt
your every move
every word
scrunticized
even though
they just pass you by?

have you ever felt
overexposed
like you're standing
beneath a spotlight
and suddenly
you've got
nothing left
to hide?

have you ever felt
being singled out
despite being
in a sea of people?

have you ever?

have you ever?

have you ever?

have you ever felt
that way
being haunted
by the thought
of meeting new people

god what if
they dont like me

have you ever?

i have never

because
the mere thought
of feeling so
makes me stay in bed