dear self,
yes, being the oldest is difficult.
it is full of unprompted responsibilities,
heavy weights passed down onto your shoulders,
becoming the model for younger ones to look up to,
high expectations that you must meet,
but don't forget
that it means you'll get freedom
sooner.
yes, being the oldest is difficult.
it is suppressed emotions buried deep within,
protecting siblings from the harsh reality,
sacrificing time and energy for the ones you love,
(are they the ones you love?)
but don't forget,
one day you'll meet someone
whom you will share all your troubles with
freely.
dear self,
yes, being the oldest is difficult.
it is being independent from a young age,
putting all your effort in the hopes of attaining attention,
then realising that you can only rely on yourself.
but don't forget,
everything is
god's plan.