When i talk to others you tell me im different
You tell me i change myself for others
But i do not believe that to be the case
But the case that i change myself for no other than you
When im with you i feel joy
or so i thought
But i do not believe joy can boil down to such anger
Maybe so at one point the lust i had for you brought me joy
But that is no longer
i know that today it will bring me nothing but anger
You tell me im different
I say you made me this way
From every "i love you"
To every "i miss you"
i blame you for what i allowed you to do
You sucked every last bit of joy out of me
So here i sit a wish to be careless monster
Left in a mess of anger and grief
No one to blame but myself
For letting you come in
And do as you please with me
