Our Love

I Dont Know

Kai POV

"Jennie, you've been a little..... different lately."

"What do you mean different? I'm still the same Jennie Kim you met."

I shook my head. "Your always late on days and always space out. Is it everything ok?"

Honestly, she started to change after she started hanging out with Taehyung. Is she maybe cheating on me? No...... she would never do that...Right?

Jennie POV

So, Kai did notice. Of course he was going to notice. It would be weird if he didn't.

"Of course, I'm fine Kai. Nothing is wrong and it'll never be. You know why? Because it's just you and me."

He smiled. It seemed like my words pushed away his doubt out of his mind. But the truth was, everything is wrong. I think I might like Taehyung. I realized that I still really really love Taehyung and that I do like Kai, but not as much as I love Taehyung. Honestly, I thought I loved Kai to death, but, I didn't. I haven't fully fallen in love with him yet. I'm half way there. Should I continue to fall in love with him or stop it? I really don't know. I should think about this later and write it in my diary. It should help me feel better.....

Time Skip

Kai dropped me off and when I entered the dorm, I immediately went to get my diary. I had to write somethings down to get an idea on what I should do. After getting it, I went to the living room and set on the couch and started to write in the diary furiously.

Dear Diary,

Today was such a hard day. I spent the day with Tae and spent the night with Kai. It seems pretty fun. But it isn't. I think I still love Taehyung. I have yet to fall in love with Kai. I really do like him, but not as deeply as I love Taehyung. What should I do? I can't betray Kai, but I can't betray my feelings. Should I break up with Kai? I think maybe even if it'll hurt him now, it'll be best for me to break up now. It'll only hurt him more if I drag this out. But, I can't bare to see him hurt. I can already picture the sadness in his soulful eyes. I can't do that to him, can I? I usually feel better after writing in here, but I don't. Not right now.
                                     Jennie Kim

Dint Dong. Who was it at this hour. I opened the door curiously and it was Kai.

"Sorry for coming at this hour, but you forgot your jacket. I thought you might freak out in the morning, so I decided to give it to you right now."

My heart melted. How could I have thought about breaking up with him. He's nothing but an angel. I decided to brush off the thoughts of the break up.

"Omg. Thank you. Your so sweet. Do you want some tea?"

"Sure."

He went into the dorm and I went into the kitchen to make some tea.

Kai POV

I sat down on the couch when I spotted a book. It was a diary. Jennie's diary. I know I shouldn't look but, I can't help myself. I read the latest thing she wrote. With a smile. But, as I started reading, my smile disappeared. She wanted to break up with me.... because of that damned Taehyung!! Arghhh!! I continued on reading and my heart clenched. She didn't use me. She truly does care about me. And because I love her care about her too, I'll let her go so she can be happy.

"Kai, I don't have the tea leaves. Do you want something else?"

"No, I'm fine. I'll take my leave now." I gave her a tight hug and left. As I left, tears started falling, I wiped them away and smiled. It's best if I let her go. It's for the best, for both of us.