The Thoughts Of a Teenage Girl

With Or Without You

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Please keep in mind this story can be very overwhelming for some, and few may get triggered. If you are ever going through something feel free to message me, I'm always up for a chat.

If theres anything I've learnt these past few years, its that friendships where you have to chase after them aren't worth being friendships at all.

The amount of times I've spent running after someone who didn't care about me at all, I've learnt all those times it wasn't even worth it.

All the begging, the apologising, trying to blame myself for the fall in the friendship.. when at the end of they day there was never a true friendship to begin with.

I've spent hours pondering over fallen memories and times spent with people who walked out of my life, wondering what went wrong.

Convincing myself it was my fault for them leaving, being persuaded into believing I wasn't good enough.

I would beg for people to stay in my life, I would think about the memories we shared and always wonder if they ever did the same.

But deep down I know they didn't, because they didn't care.

And even if they did, they weren't going to come back.

But all those times where I cried, blamed myself for ending friendships and hated myself for it... throughout all of that, somewhere along the way I decided to not care anymore.

I've learnt that some people are supposed to stay in your life, and some people are just not.

But I have agreed that I will never bow down again to anyone, I will never beg for loyalty, I will no longer blame myself for people leaving my life, because I deserve better than that.

So go ahead, leave me.

Because life goes on with or without you.

I am my own home, and if you are willing to abandon me than you don't deserve me.

Wish you the best though xo