The Thoughts Of a Teenage Girl

Good Enough?

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If I was to have 1000+ followers would I then be good enough?

If I had what was considered the "perfect body", would then I be good enough?

If I was to keep my mouth shut and not speak up, would I then be good enough?

If I was to lose weight would I then be good enough?

If I was to wear more make up would I then be good enough?

If I changed my clothes just to look more like the other girls, would I then be good enough?

If I was to have perfect clear skin, would I then be good enough?

If I was to do something rebellious, would I then be good enough?

If I was to be pushed by peer pressure, would I then be good enough?

If I was to go to parties every weekend, would I then be good enough?

If I was to give up everything I loved and was passionate about just to not seem different, would I then be good enough?

If I was to completely change my entire identity thus becoming like every cliche teenager in this forsaken mistake of world, would I then be good enough?

Stop, don't answer that.

Because the truth is, I will never  be truly good enough. Scratch that, I already am good enough.

I'm just not good enough for you, and its time to come to terms that I never will be.

Because no matter how many times I change myself or attempt to become whom I believe you wish me to be, I will always been seen as the target. Either I'm not good enough because I'm different or I'm not good enough because I try too hard, so screw the entire system. 

Because I could care less anymore, over the past two years I've struggled and I've dealt with the pain and self hate that I have always felt. But starting from today and every day onwards, its not you who I look for acceptance from, its myself because thats all that truly matters.