The Thoughts Of a Teenage Girl

Not Yours

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Please keep in mind this story can be very overwhelming for some, and few may get triggered. If you are ever going through something feel free to message me, I'm always up for a chat.

Instead of you asking if I am okay, you say "What is wrong with you?".

Instead of you supporting me, you yell at me.

Instead of you encouraging me, you put me down.

Instead of "It's going to be okay." you say "You've ruined everything".

Instead of you putting my mental health first, you believe school is the main priority.

Instead of encouraging me to be who I am in this cruel world, you tell me to impress the people around me and that I should care about what they think.

Instead of letting me be who I am, you try your utter best to live through me.

You tell me not to lie, and yet you lie about everything to me.

You tell me to yell, but you yell and shout at me everyday.

You tell me I do too much and then proceed to tell me I do too little.

You try to teach me to be perfect, and when I'm not you get mad at me.

You make me feel like absolute shit and continue to believe I am the main reason as to why you have "depression" and "anxiety".

You don't love me if I'm not who you want me to be, and you hate me when my body isn't perfect.

You make fun of the things I am insecure about, thinking its okay because you're "joking", but you only ever say this when I call you out and bullying me.

Truth be, you hurt me everyday.

But I forgive you, I bow down because I've been taught thats what I'm supposed to do.

I've grown up believing I am less than you, and that you're superior.

That you are right about everything, that I should listen and do everything that you tell me to do.

But I no longer will sit an let you control me.

I will no longer be your puppet.

I will no longer leave my to your expectations or to impress you.

This is my life, not yours.