The Secret

Days End

I nodded looking at my books she gave a swift nod standing up and walking out closing my new door.

I felt disgusting, used and just dead inside. I studied for a while after finishing my homework. I lay down on my bed staring at my ceiling and as I hear my family leave the tears start to pour down my cheeks.

After i calmed down i went down stairs and got something to eat since my food from earlier is all over my bedroom floor.

There isn't much in the fridge to make to eat but i toss random things that look good on a plate, as it heats up i roam around the house picking up slowly and doing my chores.

As i am prepping the water and cleaning supplies the microwave goes off and i debate which is more important scrubbing the floors or eating my freshly heated food.

if i dont have the floors spotless it will mean a beating but at the same time if i don't eat now it will be to late by the time i am done and that will make it two days i haven't eaten and two plates i have wasted in one day which also means a beating.

I decide that in order to dodge any more beatings considering I had already received my quota of beatings for one day, I would start the floor while my food cools.

I scrub the living room floor then try to stand. Still staggering from earlier I slowly prop myself up struggling to get my footing.

I suddenly let out a yelp as a shearing,burning pain rushed throughout my back. Stumbling a little I reach behind me cautiously patting my back.

Wincing with every move I hesitatingly look at my hand spotting it's bright red hue right away.

"Fuck" I say angrily quickly grabbing my crutches I limp my way to the bathroom.

At this point the pain is unbearable. Carefully I raise my arms slipping off my shirt. I turn to look in the bathroom mirror.

The burn on my back is starting to bubble and blister, it was bleeding, my leg was broken I can't walk with this stupid cast and my back is now full of blood.

I hissed in pain as I lean under the sink to find the gauze and disinfectant, I felt the blisters cracking and pulling painfully against my skin.

I took a cotton ball and soaked it in the disinfectant and gently dabbed it onto my wound and it stung worse now then when it happened.

I grunted in pain trying not to punch anything from the pain and then wrapped around my rib cage and over and under my arm keeping the gauze in place.

Once it was all wrapped up I went down stairs with crutches in towe, I decided my food was cool enough and sat at the dinner table eating slow with my entire body screaming at me with every movement.

Once i finished i placed my dishes in the dishwasher and quickly checked on the cloths then refilled my wash bucket and moved on to the next room, finely on the last room i sigh picking up my broken plate.

"Ow son of a bitch" i shout cutting my finger on a piece of the plate.

I quickly clean my room and fold and put away the clean cloths then take out what is needed for dinner tomorrow, the house was very quiet and i didnt like it all that much so i turned on the tv and played a video game for a while.

Soon enough it was 10:30 pm and i knew they would be home in about a hour so i stumbled slightly while standing up and shut everything off making my way through the lower floor of the house turning things off.

As i made it to the kitchen i heard a car door slam peeking out the window i saw it wasn't my family but a black car i haven't seen before so i think nothing of it since the door was locked and went back to make myself a nightly tea and go about getting ready for bed, suddenly the doorbell rang i slowly walked over only to hear colbys voice calling out my name.

I open the door to see him standing there dressed in a black muscle tee and black skinny jeans with a beanie and black combat boots, i notice i'm staring and shake my head.

"What the hell are you doing here and more importantly how do you know where i live" i say looking around to make sure knowone was watching.

"Don't worry about that is anyone home" he mumbles

"Uh no why" i say looking at him like he has three heads

"Okay look i'm sorry for snapping at school but i may have done something stupid and need you to stay calm and let me handle it alright just if he takes it out on you let me know and i'll deal with him" he said rushed.

I nodded and turned to go back inside when he grabbed my arm making me flinch.

"What happened to ur back that u have it wrapped up like that" he said pointing to where the back of my tank top had fallen a little to low in my cleaning

"Not your problem" i mumble sliding inside and shutting and locking the door.

I took my tea and went up to my room shutting off the lights sitting at my desk i look over my homework one last time as i drink my tea then place my work in my backpack and shutting off my light i turn on my radio and climb in bed careful not to touch my back, i lay on my side staring at the moon till i hear adam and our parents pull into the driveway. I roll to face the wall and pull my blankets up to cover my head and slowly drift off to sleep.