I'm just being crazy
I know this ain't love baby
And I ain't called you lately
But I been drinking
Now where the fuck is your car?
Drunk and conceited
Wassup? I don't really need ya, I just want ya
See you got me fucked up, know when I fuck with you hard
What you gon' play your cards yeah?
Cause I fuck with you hard, but you won't play my heart
Okay now wassup? I don't really need ya, I just want ya
See you got me fucked up, know when I fuck with you hard
What you gon' play your cards yeah?
Cause I fuck with you hard, but you won't play my heart
: Drunk And Conceited by Wale
~Kami~
"Kami why weren't you at the beach today?" KayZarri asked as she got out of her car.
"I was at Omar's house, but no one was there. I didn't know the family gathering moved," I explained.
"Kari, Kane, A'Keem, nor Uncle Jamal told you?" She asked. I shook my head no.
"Well A'Keem said I shouldn't be around the family until I get my shit together," I told her.
"You have been acting up lately. You got rowdy with Kissy. You lucky I didn't beat your ass," she replied.
"Kay I'm not in a joking mood," I sighed.
"And I'm not joking. The only reason I didn't slap you is because I had Jr. Kami maybe A'Keem is right," she shrugged.
I got into my car and left. I did not have to sit and listen to that shit. My phone suddenly buzzed. It was an Instagram picture of Kane, Keem, Kari, and Jamal.
Caption: @A'KariG: Their baby love
I dropped the phone as I heard a horn blowing. I quickly swerved back into my lane. Then I heard police sirens behind me. Great. Just fucking great. I pulled over and the cop got out.
"License and insurance," he said. I handed him my license and insurance card. He looked over both. "You know you could have just caused a head on collision Ms. Gaines?"
"I am aware officer," I said staring straight ahead.
"Wait Kami?" He asked. I looked up at DonDon, Keira's, Kissy's, and KayZarri's brother. All Omar's kids. "Why weren't you at the beach today?"
"Can I have my ticket please?" I asked turning to look at the road. He sighed writing the ticket.
"I'll never understand you," he muttered handing me the ticket.
"Thank you," I said, then pulled off. I went home and it was eerily dark which meant Michael was here. I went into the guestroom and just like first time. Just like every time, sex was spelled out in pills with a bottle of Hennessy on the side.
"You know what time it is," he came up behind me opening the Hennessy. I took a pill and drunk some. Then I took another one and turned the bottle up. After five pills, Michael pushed me back on the bed. He climbed between my legs and stared at me. I smiled. He chuckled leaning up, so he could put on a condom. He slid his dick into me causing me to moan out. Then he suddenly picked me up and slammed against the wall. I groaned as he fucked me hard and fast against the wall. He huffed and huffed. I moaned feeling myself getting lost in the medicine and alcohol. I'm bout gone. I can't even feel anything anymore. But damn did I feel good.
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I got up out of the guest bed and cleaned it up. Michael was gone as usual. He usually leaves in the middle of the night while I'm half damn dead. I went into my room and showered. I feel so damn good right now. I put on a tank top and house shorts. I was in my kitchen eating cereal when Hakeem walked in.
"You still drunk and high?" He asked. I rolled my eyes.
"Hakeem I feel good. Don't ruin my mood," I sighed.
"You need help. I don't know what it's gone take for you to realize," he sighed.
"Hakeem my coping mechanism helps me. It eases my pain," I tried to explain.
"But it's killing you. Can't you see that? I don't want anything to happen to you and you slowly dying in front of me Love," he muttered.
"Can I go with you?" I suddenly asked.
"When you sober up, you can," he replied.
"Hakeem come on," I groaned.
"No. I'm not taking you anywhere like this. But to a rehabilitation facility. And you don't want that, so until you sober up, sit your ass right here."
"My brother cut me off from the family. They all went to the beach without me yesterday. He told me until I get my shit together, I can't be around the family."
"He sound like a fuck nigga," he mumbled.
"I also got a ticket," I told him.
"How much is it?" He asked.
"$450," I told him.
"Damn Love. What the fuck did you do?" He asked.
"Reckless driving. I almost caused a head on collision," I explained. He chuckled.
"Only you love." He kissed my forehead. Then my phone lit up.
MoneyMan: I'm back home Kami!
Me: Word?
MoneyMan: Yup. You trynna hang out today?
Me: Got plans already. How about tomorrow? I get off at six. We can go eat or something.
MoneyMan: For show, see you tomorrow
Me: See you then.
"My best friend is back in town," I told Hakeem.
"That's wassup. Maybe he'll keep you out of trouble," he nodded.
"If anything ever happens to me, just call him and he'll connect you to my family," I laughed dryly.
"I know Love," he replied.
"I think I'm sober now," I told him.
"I'll know when you're sober. You're gonna have a bad ass headache. Until then, we can watch a movie or something."
"Can we have sex?" I asked him.
"Not until you're sober," he told me. I nodded. Man I need to take a pregnancy test soon. I take one every month. With my promiscuos ways, I take all precautions. I get checked every two months instead of six. I'll be glad when my life is over. I'm slowly killing myself.
"What do you wanna watch Love?" He asked.
"Norbit," I told him. He went to the movie and I cuddled into his chest watching the movie. Man I feel so at peace with the world right now.
"Hakeem," I said.
"Hmm?"
"Don't ever give up on me."
"I won't Love. I promise."
~Flashback~
"What the fuck Kami! How could you miss that fucking interview! I put myself on the line to get you that interview!" A'Keem snapped.
"I'm sorry! I-"
"Shut the fuck up!" He yelled. I got quiet. I don't think he even noticed my hands shaking. "Get out of my car."
"I don't have a ride home," I whispered.
"I'll come back and get you when I calm down. Now get out!" He snapped. And I did.
I walked down the street scared out of my mind. I hate walking by myself at night. I paused and suddenly someone came up to me. "Who let a pretty young thang like you out of their sight?" He asked.
"I umm. I'm lost," I stated.
"You damn right. You lost," he laughed. "Where you trying to get to? I'll hail you a cab."
"I'm waiting on my brother," I explained. I didn't wanna leave and then he come back looking for me.
"Lanky!" I heard someone yell. Then I saw a gang of guys coming our way.
"Whose this?" Somebody asked him.
"Don't I know you? Chick-fil-A?" A different one asked. Oh the fine dark skin I was staring at.
"She needs to get home. Gone take her Tristan," Lanky, told the dark skin.
"Come on," he said. I shook my head about to refuse until I looked up at the street sign. Murda Murda street. I could die out here.
"Okay," I said following him.
"What's your name?" He asked.
"Kami. Yours is Tristan right?" I asked.
"Nah the fellows call me that. I'm Hakeem," he said. "I don't really like your name. You mind if I call you something else?"
"Call me whatever you love. I mean like."
"I like that. I'll call you Love."
"You okay?" Hakeem scratched my head.
"Yeah. Just thinking," I told him.
"Yeah your headache gone be a killer. You're too relaxed right now," he sighed.
"You seem to know so much about this. I can only imagine."
"Try to rest Love. You gonna feel like shit in a minute," he told me.
"You're so good to me. One day I'm gonna make it up to you," I whispered.
"I know. You'll start by getting clean. Going to rehab for all of your addictions, then living up to your full potential. I believe in you Love. You got this," he told me.
"Thank you daddy," I told him.
"You're welcome." He kissed my forehead and turned his attention back to the movie. Damn I think I love him.
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