ANDROPHOBIA -One step closer to you [On-Going] [Jungkook FF]

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Arie's POV

"It's been a week she's in there. I'm afraid that she couldn't survive long as she haven't eat anything," I could hear grandma's voice talking to someone outside my room. Even if I could die without eating or socialising, I prefer staying in this small room. Nobody could harm me.

I was hugging my legs as my tears were rolling down until I heard a knock, "It's me, Haru."

"Can you please open this door. Please," I took a long time to think after I finally unlock the door, dragging her inside and lock the door back. Just that I don't want grandma sees me with this condition. Pitiful.

I sit at the edge of the bed as I look at the white tiles plainly, "Are you, okay?" Haru asked but this time her voice cracked.

I muted myself , giving no answer as there's no answer for that question. I've tried to be stronger but I lost as my tears were streaming hard while Haru hugged me, tightly.

"Why do I need to f-face this?" I sobbed

Haru try her best to comfort me, "I know it's hard but you need to forget everything that had happened to you."

I left no words as crying is the only things that I could do.

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I've gathered all strength that I have to go to school after everything that had happened.

'Even if you stay like this, nothing change. You're the one who need to change."

'Move on from the past and you'll see the light.'

'Beside that, don't worry. Those jerk were kicked out from school last week.'

'How?'

'It's Jungkook. He report them to the principal and they will receive the punishment.'

What Haru said last night does really affect me. She got her points. If I don't change, nothing would change. But the thing is, why is Jungkook really want to help me a lot?

"Are you ready?" Haru asked as she entered my room. Today she'll be going to school with me as it has been a while. In response, I nodded.

School is still the same but now there's no more those jerks and now people doesn't care much about my existence. It's relieving as there's no more burden left. The only thing is, the black memory that I had at this school.

I could sense that Jungkook is trying to get to know me better but as I said I have a phobia and won't let any guys enter the chapter of my life. I take every effort to avoid him as I tried to be cautious.

It's recess time as I excuse myself from Haru, "I'll follow you later." She nodded.

"Where are you heading to?"

I smiled, "Taking some fresh air."

I went to the rooftop, standing near the balcony while my hands are touching the cold cement. The cold breezes, I let it caress my face as I close my eyes. Every unwanted memory, came across my mind. I remember the details one by one. How hurtful it is, making me having no will on living anymore.

I step on the higher cement where anything could happen as I said, "Mom, I miss you."

Jungkook's POV

As I was about to take my steps to the canteen, I saw Arie and Haru were talking at the hallway. It's weird that they're not going to the same path. Arie seems like she's going to somewhere else.

'Where are you going?'

I follow her just to make sure she's fine as I realised we're at the rooftop. I take a few steps back so that she won't notice me. I look every single steps she takes, worrying that she might do something harmful.

My body was leaning on the wall as she let the cold breezes caressed her face. I was all chilled until the moment she steps on the higher cement, which is really dangerous.

I shouted, "Park Arie! Don't move a muscle!"

As she heard me, she turn away, "I'm tired of this! I've no reason to live anymore!"

I took few steps nearer as she warn me, "Don't come or I'll jump!"

"If you have no reason to live anymore, what's about the person who loves you, your grandma?!"

"Have you forgotten your goal?"

She asked while sobbing, "W-what goal?"

"To find your biological father, isn it?"

She muted as she realise something. At that time, I run towards her and grab her waist to a safer place. Even though I know that she doesn't like being nearer to guys, I cupped her face.

"Are you okay?"

She shiver as she said, "H-How did y-you know?"

I keep quiet even though I know it from Haru.

"No matter how I knows it, what's important is you're safe now."

For a while, I took a deep stare into her eyes. It's... beautiful. Until then, she hiccuped, shivering as I know her phobia is beginning.

"I'm sorry," I said as I take few steps away.

"Let me take you home. You're not ready for everything yet."

She stared at me for a moment as she nodded.

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"Don't worry, grandma. I've settled everything at the school and she'll be resting for a while," I talk to grandma after I escort Arie to her house.

"Thank you so much, young man. Without you, Arie must have leave me alone."

I smiled as I hold her hands, "As long as I'm still alive, I'll protect her."

"Can I ask you something?"

I nodded as she said, "When I'm not around anymore, can you stay by her side?"

I swallowed my saliva as the responsibility that was given is hard, "I will."

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Quotes- Every cloud has a silver lining