ANDROPHOBIA -One step closer to you [On-Going] [Jungkook FF]

6 | Dream

It was a sunny day but yet it wasn't hot at all. I was accompanied by the cold breeze, caressing my face for all the time. I was wearing a white simple blouse, realising that I'm all alone in this garden. The garden is gorgeous, filled with various colours of flowers with a harmonic scent. I look around the garden, noticing a big tree was there. At last I decided to sit under the tree as I don't know where to go.

Weird.

"Where am I?"The question stumbled from my mouth. Even though I know that the question might be left unanswered, I couldn't let my curiosity kill me.

I sighed. Despite being lost in my own thoughts, I chose to close my eyes, appreciating the moment that I had alone. It was really calming and peaceful.

"Arie..."

Suddenly, my ears sense a soft voice calling for my name.It was recognisable, belong to a women that I used to know. For my own sake, I decided to ignore it as what I know, nobody was there beside from myself. But then, the same voice disturb me again. Louder. As the owner of the voice is sitting in front of me.

"Arie..."

As soon as possible, I open my eyes resulting me to see a woman,standing right in front of me. The light from the sun make her features seen clearly. She was smiling to ears as it was the happiest moment for her. And at that moment, I recognised her. It was her.

"Mom?" From sitting position, I get up  and went for her embrace. I miss it a lot. The warm and cozy body of mom never bore me at all. It was almost 5 years since I lost her and now, I'm standing in her embrace.

While my eyes were closed, I hug her tightly as I don't want to let her go. "I miss you so much." I said it sincerely.

Feeling the same, she respond but that wasn't her main point seeing me. "I miss you too, but I have something much more important to tell you."

I open my eyes and look at her face cluelessly. Mom caressed my face as she talks like there are burdens on her shoulders.

"Your dad is still alive and I want you to find him. Seek for his guard and you will be safe."

"But I don't need him and I'm safe right now. You're here, mom." I replied, embracing mom tightly.

"I won't be here for long. You can't be with me for now, my dear." The words she said just now, making me desperately want her to stay. But I don't know why she keeps on talking weirdly.

She put a smile on her face as she say, "Wait for the right time and we will meet again." As I was about to reply her, she left me just like a wind. Realising that she was not there anymore, I kneeled down as my eyes is watery. I tried to keep myself from crying, but then I know that I'm not strong enough as my tears were rolling down my cheeks. I cry my lungs out, begging for god to bring her back but unfortunately, it was all useless. Until one time, I fainted and then I realised, it was just....

A dream...

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Walking to school is tiring but I prefer walking as it helps me in making my messy mind fresh again. The green trees until the colourful flowers are never fail in cheering up my mood. The road that I took to school was so long and I regret that. It gave opportunity for unwanted things to enter my mind. But then, this thought came across my mind.

"Your dad is still alive and I want you to find him. Seek for his guard and you will be safe."

I let out a sigh aggressively. Now, it is impossible for me to find my dad. I doesn't know anything about him. Back then, when I talked about dad, mom would always trying to avoid from spilling out dad's information.