he's not fake || sope

twelve

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yoongi suddenly got off his seat and went back to his room. it felt just like when he came back from work.

he was exhausted, his boss decided to give him the hardest part that day. yoongi even gasped for air and water when his shift ended. yoongi entered his home and the overwhelming feeling of hurt started attacking him. the memories started running all over his head.

yoongi entered his room with sleepy eyes. he felt his eyes slowly closing even when he hasn't entered his bed yet. suddenly, he collapsed on his mattress. when namjoon came in, he played it off as sleeping.

it was hard, yoongi started throwing up. he ran to the restroom. namjoon got up and rushed to yoongi's side. "yoongi, are you alright?"

"n-no," yoongi responded, weakly.

everything was blurry. yoongi didn't remember anything from that moment. all he knew was that he was throwing up and everyone was asking if he needed an ambulance. anything after that was a mystery to yoongi. that's why yoongi was terrified to open his eyes to see himself in a hospital bed.

"w-where am i?" yoongi asked softly. he scrunched his eyes so he can adjust his eyes to the bright light. then he heard a sudden movement from the corner of the room.

"you're awake!" a boy whisper yelled and quickly made his way to yoongi's bedside. "i was so worried!"

"h-hoseok? how did you get here?" yoongi asked. he just hoped that he wasn't having an illusion of hobi.

"namjoon texted me that you were sent to the hospital. i got here as quick as i could," hoseok sweetly smiled down at the boy.

"how did he text you? i never gave him your number?"

"he found me on facebook."

"oh," yoongi only frowned. he didn't know what else to ask or say. he didn't want hoseok to see him in such a state. he felt too embarrassed that he didn't notice hoseok reach his fingers out to touch his face.

hoseok softly caressed yoongi's cheek, "i'm sorry this is happening to you."

yoongi quickly took hoseok's hands off his face with a gentle push. "i-i don't want you here."

"it's okay, i want to be here."

"n-no, i don't want you here. please leave me alone."

hoseok frowned, "please don't push me away, yoongi. i just want to help."

"if you want to help me, then leave me alone. don't speak to me ever again. you're giving me false hope, i can't take it anymore."

"what about hobi?" hoseok bravely said. he knew that he was going to spark something in yoongi's head but he didn't care. he wasn't going to leave the poor boy alone in a hospital.

yoongi froze. his eyes slowly grew wide and the color of his eyes slowly became faint as a glossy layer started to come in, "who told you?" he said in a stern voice.

"that doesn't matter. why are you giving up on hobi? give him some time and he'll give you what you've always wanted," hoseok said in his soft, honey like voice.

"what i want is to not have problems anymore. like namjoon said, i'm helping myself in the future."

"but you're breaking my heart in the process," hoseok didn't want to cry. he never wanted to cry in front of anyone. he didn't want to start today. not in front of yoongi.

yoongi looked at hoseok straight in the eyes, "what?"

"i know that we haven't met each other for more than two days but i just can't stop thinking about you. everything about you made me love you, even if you don't want to see me again, i want you to know," hoseok sadly smiled as his first tear rolled down his face. the tear raced down his plump cheeks and around his heart shaped lips.

"hobi is right here, confessing to you," hoseok's desperate laugh broke yoongi's heart. he knew that hoseok was trying to tell him that everything was going to be alright. but in his eyes, he knew that hoseok was scared.

"hoseok," yoongi finally said. "don't force yourself."

"i'm not forcing myself. it's how i really feel but now that you don't want hobi. i guess you don't want me either. i-it's okay, i understand," hoseok slowly got up from the bedside and wiped away his tears.

"don't worry about me, i'll be on my way then. goodbye, yoongi," hoseok turned his back to yoongi for a moment. he wanted yoongi to stop him but one he didn't say a word, his heart could take another blow so he just left the room with a broken heart.

yoongi didn't know why but he felt his heart alter at hoseok's leave. it was like he didn't want the boy to leave. but that's what he wanted, no?

it was a couple of minutes and the hospital door was opened with a knock. yoongi snapped his head at the direction and hoped that it was hoseok, but it wasn't.

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