Past Is The Past [Finished]

No More Secrets

Beyoncé's POV

 "Mama." I said when I caught up with her.

 "Bey, I just need a minuet." She said when she sat in one of the chairs in the waiting room.

 I sighed and sat down by her.

 "I just wasn't expecting her to say that." She said.

 "I wasn't either." I said.

 "How did I not know?" She said. "I knew when you and Solange lost your virginity, hell I knew when Kelly did."

 "Ma, you can't blame yourself." I said.

 "I should've paid more attention." She said.

 "Ma, it's okay." I said. "But right now we need to go back in there because Angel probably feels some type of way for us leaving."

 "I just needed a minuet after hearing all that." She said.

 After a few minutes of sitting we got up and went back in the session. We sat down for a minuet not really saying anything.

 "Angel, I'm not mad at you." My mom said. "I'm just disappointed you didn't tell me."

 "Mama, it wasn't something easy to tell you." Angel said.

 "I know." My mom said. "Why did you do it?"

 "In all honesty, most of the kids I was hanging around were older and they was telling me to get it over with and it would feel good." She said.

 "And how did it feel?" I asked.

 "It was terrible but I only did it once. They kept telling me to do it again but I didn't." She said.

 "But why didn't you at least tell me?" I asked.

 I'm not gonna lie, I feel some type of way. I get it, don't tell mommy but I'm her sister, she could've told me.

 "I was ashamed." She said. "Mommy always said that when you have sex your giving a special gift away to someone you love and I just gave up my gift to someone I didn't truly love. I felt like y'all wouldn't look at me the same."

 "I would never look down on you." I said.

 "You did when I got locked up." She said.

 "I wasn't looking down at you, I was pissed off." I said.

 "Understandable." She said.

 "Angel wanted you all to know this so their would be no more secrets." The therapist said.

 "And there are no more right?" My mom asked.

 "No more." Angel said. "I promise. But can I ask something?"

 My mom nodded.

 "Are y'all gonna tell Daddy and Jay?" She asked.

 I laughed a little because she looked scared.

 "I'm not telling Jay, it's not his business." I said.

 "Mommy." She said.

 She sighed.

 "No, unless he ask which I know he won't." She said.

 Angel sighed in relief.

 "Now, since everything is out in the open I think this session is over." The therapist said. "Would you like to come and talk again?"

 "How about I come when I need to talk." Angel said.

 "That's fine." She said.

 We got up to leave and went to the car. We decided to go to lunch. We arrived at the restaurant and ordered our food.