How To Love A Rape Victim (Sugakookie)

Chapter 25

Yoongi's POV:
"Here you go bun," I handed a mug of hot chocolate over to Jungkook while he was sitting in the bay window of the living room.

"Thank you," he smiled at me before looking back out towards the night.

"Whatcha looking at?" I asked him as I sat across from him and took a sip of my own hot chocolate.

"The moon, it's really pretty out tonight," he answered. But I couldn't help to stare at the way the moon lit his face up instead and thought that was much more beautiful.

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Yoongi's POV:
Once the hot chocolates were long gone and Jungkook seemed close to passing out, I grabbed our empty mugs and took them to the kitchen.

While I was washing the dishes up real quick, I felt warm arms wrap around my torso.

"Hey baby. Ready for bed?" I asked him as I felt his face dig into my back.

"Yeah," he muffled out.

"Okay, I'm almost done," I told him before he let go and I rinsed the last cup off before I dried my hands and turned to see him leaning on the counter all wrapped up in a blanket.

"You're cute," I complimented him as he just shrugged at me.

"Let's get you to bed then, yeah?" I said as I walked up to him and made him look up at me.

He just gave me this adorable sleepy nod and soft smile, I couldn't help it and I slowly started to lean into him, wanting to finally feel those pretty lips on my own.

I looked to his eyes as I came closer to see if he was okay. He seemed to be a little shocked, but didn't look like he hated it.

I finally gave in and closed my eyes as I  leaned the rest of the way in until I felt his lips pressed against mine. The feeling that shot throughout my body was indescribable.

I finally started to move my lips against his, but he wasn't really responding that well. I thought maybe it had to do with the fact that this is his first kiss and he seems very tired right now, so he probably has no idea what to do.

So I pressed harder into the kiss and moved my lips more to show him what to do, but by doing that I could really feel how stiff he was getting so I quickly pulled off.

I saw how clenched his eyes were and the tears that were now starting to streaming down his cheeks. I grew shocked when I realized, he didn't want this.

"Jungkook?" I carefully called out to him as I placed my hand softly on his cheek. I could hear the whimper he let out as he tried to curl away from my touch.

"Fuck, Jungkook," I choked out as I let my hand drop to my side. I couldn't help the tears that started to form in my own eyes. I didn't want to hurt him.

"Yoongi?" He quietly let out as he finally opened his eyes to look at me.

"I didn't mean to scare you baby. I never wanted to scare you. I'm so sorry. Shit I shouldn't have done that. Shit Jungkook, I should have asked," I said while backing away from him.

"I'm such an awful person Jungkook. All I ever wanted to do was to protect you, but now look at what I've done. I couldn't even protect you from myself," I sniffed out as I shook my head. Then suddenly I felt a pair of arms wrap around me.

"No, Jungkook! Stop! Please, I don't want to hurt you," I said while getting out of his grasp.

"Yoongi, hold me. Please hold me. Please. Yoongi. Hold me," he sobbed out as he dropped to the ground. I was hesitant at first, but seeing him like this really broke my heart. I quickly dropped to the ground in front of him and hugged him to my chest.

"Yoongi, don't leave me. Please don't leave me. I'm sorry I'm complicated. I'm sorry I'm such a wreck. I'm sorry how slow everything is going. I'll be better, I swear. Kiss me. Have sex with me. Right now," he frantically said as he grabbed at my face to try to kiss me again and then reached down to grab at my crotch.

"Jungkook stop!" I exclaimed as I finally got a hold of him to make him stop.

"Please Yoongi," he heavily breathed out.

"This isn't what you want Jungkook. This isn't even what I want. You're scared. Stop it," I told him.

"Yoongi, you're gonna leave me," he said while shaking with tears.

"I am not going to leave you Jungkook. I'm not going to force you. I'm not going to hurt you. I. Am. Not. Going. To. Leave. You. Okay?" He just kept shaking his head at me though.

"Jungkook listen to me," I said as I grabbed his face to get him to look at me.

"I love you. I am so sorry for forcing myself onto you like that. I promise I won't do it again. I'll ask every single damn time. Every kiss, every hug, and everything in between. I promise I won't leave you. No matter what, I'm not going to leave you. I don't want you just for the kisses or for the sex. Dammit Jungkook, I fucking love you. I want your laugh and smile. I want your blush and shy conversation. I want your trust and love. I want your yes every time I ask to touch you in any way. I want you in my life Jungkook. I don't even care if you're never ready to kiss or have sex with me. I don't need it. Please Jungkook. I'm so sorry." Then I suddenly felt him hugging me as he climbed up into my lap.

"Yoongi. Yoongi I love you so much. Thank you. Thank you for being patient with me," he softly said as he dug his face into my neck.

"Can I hug you back?" I asked him.

"Please," he begged. So I quickly wrapped my own arms around him and hugged him closer to my body.

"What that man did to you was awful and I wish I could take it away. But I can't, so I'm just gonna love you and treat you as the prince you are. You don't need to rush things with me, okay. I love you so much my little bun."

"I love you too Yoongi. I trust you so much. I know you'll protect me and keep me safe. I know you won't force me. Thank you."

"Anything for my prince."

"You can give me a peck on the forehead."

"You sure?"

"You just said anything for your prince right? Well, he wants a kiss on his forehead from his King," He cheekily smiled at me.

"God I love you. I'm gonna kiss you now," I let him know. He nodded his head at me and waited for the kiss. I slowly and carefully brought my lips to his forehead before giving him a soft peck and then pulling away.

"I like those," Jungkook hummed out as he closed his eyes.

"Awe, baby bun," I cooed at him. Then he cuddled back into my neck as we just sat there, enjoying each other's warmth for god knows how long.