My life

30/12

So this weekend I spent it at my grandparents house because that's what has happened for a few years now. When i was little I used to always visit them on a Tuesday, Friday and Saturday; it was mainly after school but then on the weekends it used to be all day because my mom wouldn't want to look after me. This continued for a few while until a few years ago when all the trouble with my dad started. This is because my sisters and i were abused by our dad and my mom finally had enough when she finally called the police and decided to get a divorce. When this happened I was in year 6 and my younger sister in year 4. When my grandparents found out about this they decided that it was best that I stayed at their house, so I lived there for 2 years straight, it then went to just staying there on the weekends which was alright and I really enjoyed it. But then I was doing my GCSE's a few years ago so i decided to stay at home for longer so that i could revise and prepare for the upcoming exams. After these finished I decided to go back to normal and stay at their house on the weekends. I've kept this up until last September when I decided that college is more important than family, I know its not really but I think if I keep telling my self this then I will feel more focused and willing to do more work in order to pass my A-Levels and get in to a good university. And the only way I could do this was if I spent more time at home revising and doing loads of extra homework and exam papers so I can boost my grades. In all honesty I hate not staying at my grandparents house as much as I used to, but I worked out that it was the best way so I can focus on studying more and getting better grades. Last year I completely messed up the year because I wasn't taking it seriously at all, which I am starting to regret so much because, i'mnow predicted BCC at the end of the year but I know I can do so much better if I just focus. The reason why I started this was because I needed to let go if everything in my mind and get it out so its not holding me back. I dont really like talking to other people about super personal things, which I know I should start to, but I dont want anyone to feel bad for me or feel like I need help.

So earlier this morning, this girl that used to be my friend back in highschool messaged me asking how christmas was and the usual, but because we've drifted so far apart it was a bit hard to hold a conversation with her, plus she's not really a text person shes more of a call person but im the other way around, and she sent me a load of pictures with her and this guy. She's a year older than I am so she's already in the working world and finished college last year. I decided to ask who the guy was in the photos and she said it was her boyfriend, so being the amazing friend I am, I asked who is was and that and she told me his name was Chad. As there's not many guys named Chad round by us I thought it was strange because a girl I speak to at college also has a boyfriend called Chad. So I told her that and thought it was cool that two people I know are going out with guys with the same name. The only difference is that the Chad who goes out with the girl from college is 18 and the Chad Chloe (the girl who used to be my best friend) knows is 21 so i knew it wasn't the same guy and she started spamming me and asking if it was the same guy, and I told her it wasn't and she said that because Chad's at work she can't ask him and I was like there's no need it's not the same persom, but she wouldn't believe me. So I kind of left her on read which I know is horrible because I hate it, but she wouldn't stop. And she's just blocked my number and my snapchat, so I messaged her on messenger asking why she's done that and she says that she doesn't believe me and that I'm bullshitting becase its the same person eventhough it's not. And she now expects me to send proof so I havent read any more of her messages. I kind of feel bad but whatever she just needs to trust him more.

Anyways, Jimin's song Promise has just dropped and I am absolutly loving it and happy birthday Taehyung!!!!