Arshi Addictions

You Succeeded!

Broken dreams and bleeding hearts are not easily sustained.

When every corner of your mind is hammered with pain and loss everything disappears.

And today all that exists in this world vanished in thin air making Mrs Raizada just a lifeless soul.

In one single day her identity changed altogether. A woman goes through a lot of challenging phased in her long life. But this morning brought with it a painful reminder of her hopeless tomorrow.

Her first marriage brought nothing but darkness for her. A darkness that swallowed her pride and self esteem. But she chose to forget that and learn from that incident proving to herself and everyone that she is mentally strong. However after a few challenging months things changed for the better. She tied the second and official knot which was nothing less than a rebirth. Her sweet and loving husband made her a woman. Her personality bloomed in his presence. She grew more confident and her strength increased a ten fold.They were each others support. A power couple, defending and depending on one another.

And today she has lost it all. Now there wont be anyone to pass a shy smile at her. Nor there will any soft goodnight kisses full of promises. From now on it will be her...only her. Tears cascaded down her pale face and a chill ran down her body as she placed her hand on her flat stomach where a part of him now continued to breath. With a smile she remembered how just two days ago he had swung her in his muscular arms in sheer happiness after hearing about her pregnancy. She felt a sob building within her chest at the memory.

Promising herself to be strong for this new life within her, she wiped her tears yet again. Three months of togetherness. 90 days filled with love and only love. She was really lucky to have him even if it was for such a short time. And after bringing her baby in this world she will make sure that he or she will become a good natured humble being like his father.

A hand shot out to her shoulder shaking her out of the reverie. Mrs Raizada turned sideways to notice her sister weeping for her loss. The only genuine one who literally loved her, not just in theory.Their eyes met for a second. When painful green eyes met with hurtful hazel orbs she naturally embraced her doe eyed sister. Always together the two had seen a lot in their lives. But this sunny morning felt so different.

Dont cry so much. Please. You need to look after yourself now. Think about the baby.

With the nod of her head Mrs. Raizada took strength from her sisters words. She had to live. Be normal. For the symbol of her love. For that little soul who is nothing more than a peanut yet. Breaking their embrace the shell of a woman glanced at her in laws sitting at a distance. All the keen and compassionate eyes with unsaid words gave her the will to gather herself. They are her family too. She has to be strong for everyone. She mused.

I will have to for my baby. Right?

Her sister nodded with a small smile encouraging her nonetheless. Mrs. Raizada caressed her sisters head admiring her maturity of handling things. Her thoughts were cut off when she saw the silhouette of a man on her husbands garland clad photo. Pure hatred bubbled inside her. And a vigorous need for vengeance shot her livid mind.

With a sneer she turned around to face the murderer of her husband and father of her unborn child. The only thing that stopped her was her sisters supportive hand on her shoulder. For once only for once Mrs Raizada wanted to be cruel and violent. Just for this tiny moment her fierce self desired his blood. And this desire boiled at an alarming rate as soon as the man opened his mouth.

I...I am sorry. I did not expect this to happen...

Pursing her lips she controlled the lioness within her. Dont let the man cause you any stress. Think for your baby first. Your love for the little one is far more than your hatred for this being. Control. Be calm. For your little guy. She pleaded her mind to remain composed. So pointing her index finger at the now guilt filled eyes she replied so coldly that all the Raizadas behind her could only cringe with disappointment.