The Story Of My Life

Society's behavior

My mother, being widow, with no make up, with whole burden of a family and a little kid, even at young age, people just a few years junior called her aunty instead of sister. This made me upset.

She hardly got proper food. She looked sick.

This was unfair.

Why?

People of my mother's age were called sister-in-law.

Is the sindoor on forehead of women everything?

People who earlier called "boudi" changed to aunty

I used to call them back uncles, but often I felt bad. Even people elder than her did same, was it that she was a widow or mother of an overweight growing girl.

I often got confused as why she was treated like this?

It was her luck or was it me?

When I became underweight, this treatment changed.

Now I am telling this about random people.

Known people wasn't so. As said earlier some encouraged but maximum made fun or avoided.

Even her sister changed for whom she did sacrifice a lot.

I did not like to talk to people.

I liked to stay aloof as I grew up.

What people would avoid me?

I avoided them.

I began to enjoy studies and solitude.

My ideologies were different, mentality didn't match.

I found abstract ideas more precious.

Yes basic needs of life are required but they can give us comfort not happiness.

But love, friendship, care, respect, sympathy, originality and spiritualism are abstract things which I valued more.

I found most people materialistic, running for money and with lesser emotions.

I failed to be practical or reasonable as the society wanted.

People studied for money and jobs.

I too needed a job more than anyone, but I studied because I loved too.

I feel, am not fit for society, but as I grew up, I met people, though very few, who were much like me.

They encouraged me, appreciated me and liked too which makes me feel that I am different from others