Look at Me (BoyxBoy)

♎︎ Chapter 7 • Call Me Your Master ♎︎

Look at Me
Chapter 7
"Call Me Your Master"
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Xander

"I'm surprised you were able to get away from Ethan." I chuckle, playing with Charlie's hair since his head is resting on my lap. He came over here to talk and I'm glad that he did. I don't want him to suffer in silence ever again.

"Ethan's perfect. He's protective, but I can't blame him. He did almost lose me." Charlie looks up at the ceiling. "Now I'm his forever."

"Forever," I repeat the word, the phonetics feeling foreign on my tongue. "How do you know?"

Charlie closes his eyes contently. "You just know, I suppose. It just feels right. Everything feels meant to be, like I was made for him and he was made for me."

"That's amazing, Charlie. I'm so happy for you." I smile.

"Thank you. I met his family not too long ago. What an experience that was. It was so nerve wracking. I was so scared of messing up. I didn't want his family to hate me or not think that I was right for him. I need him in my life, Xander." Charlie closes his eyes tighter.

I pet the bridge of his nose until he's content again. "Good thing he needs you in his life too."

"I want him to come over and have dinner with our family," Charlie says dreamily.

"Then do it." My expression brightens. "If Ethan's family loving you made you so happy, then it'll be the same the other way around."

Charlie sits up and hugs me. "Thank you. I'm positive that you and Ryder will get there soon enough."

"About that..." I bite my lip awkwardly. "Ryder's and my relationship has been changing. Like, he's more handsy and physical, but it's one way usually. I'm not mad or irritated with it, but I am worried. We recently slept in the same bed, but it felt like we were a married couple that was failing. I'm fine if he needs to wait and I would never force him, but if he's been... abused, I wouldn't want to make him relapse or relive anything."

"I haven't heard of that happening, so it's okay. Ryder is safe." Charlie assures me. "Ryder is safe."

"Is it me...?" I ask. "Maybe he's worried that I'm just questioning my sexuality and that if I see him, I'll change my mind or something. Maybe when I touch, I do it too roughly. I'm new to this. I haven't had this problem before. I don't want to have sex with him. I just want him to be comfortable around me."

"Just support him and continue to care about him." Charlie starts to braid my hair. "Good things come to those who wait."

"I can wait, Charlie," I say. "There's nothing wrong with waiting. I just want Ryder comfortable. That's all any of this is about. I'm not just some stupid, horny teen who wants to stick his dick in a hole. I want Ryder and I want him to be happy."

Charlie kisses my forehead. "I know that. I'm glad that you care about him so much. It definitely makes Ethan feel better."

I nod. "So what should I do?"

He moves my hair behind my ear. "Just keep being you."

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Xander: Ryderrrrrrrr.

Princess: Yeah?

Xander: Sooooooooo. How are you? Whatcha doing?

Princess: Jacking it to you. 😉

Xander: I want to hear. 😉