The Shadow Of The Kiss~Larmau~ Book Two

Sadness

Just a little trigger warning! DO NOT read if feeling any kind of self harm feelings. *It's also a little scandalous" You can skip this chapter easily and go to the next. It was hard to write this myself. Just know help is only one phone call away. If you need help please go find a friend, family member, adult if some kind or a hotline. Thank you, please be safe
~Love Sam~

~Aphmau Age 18~
It's been a few days now and the paralysis has finally fully gone away. Laurence has been having a hard time with all of this. He's been letting his anger out a ton and gone hunting a lot. I hear him crying in the bathroom and run over. I bang on the door.

"Hey Laurence! Let me in!" I banged again. I'm smelling blood. Shit Laurence, what's happening. I quickly found some strength from my shadow knight form and yanked the door open. I was in shock to see blood dripping down on both of his arms. I acted quickly and grabbed the towel. I wet it down and placed it on one of his arms. I grabbed another towel and did the same. They drenched in blood in less than thirty seconds.

"Aphmau stop... please." He begged. I grabbed his paling face.

"Laurence, I love you, I care for you, it's going to be okay, please let me help you." He cried even more. I pulled him in for a long hug. I kissed him on the forehead. I stood back up searching the bathroom for some bandages. I found them and found another dry towel. I took off the wet ones and threw them in the sink. I dabbed the dry one all over the deep cuts on his arm. I took some bandages and wrapped them up him forearm. I repeated the steps on the other side too. These cuts were deep enough to kill. If hadn't gotten here in time...

He needs to bathe and get some sleep after this. I spoke softly not to stress him.

"Can I take your shirt off. We need to get you in the bath okay?" He looked at me with plain, blood stuck eyes. I slowly slipped off his shirt and laid it behind me. He slid off his pants grabbed them to put in the pile. I ran the bath to a medium temperature water. I ran my fingers soothingly across his hair. As soon as the bath filled to about 3/4 way I stopped the water and attempted to help him get in the bath. Once he got in he just looked at the water. I sat along the edge of the bath.

"Can we talk about this?" I asked softly. He nodded his head yes. I sat there in silence playing with his hair waiting for him to talk. He looked up at me with grief stricken eyes.

"Can you come down here?" His rough asked. He bent his knees into his chest. I took off my shirt and pants, both of us now left in my undergarments. I slid in the tub across from him. He held out both of his hands for me to hold. I held both of them rubbing circles along his hands. Tears still fell from his eyes. I leaned over on my knees and let go one of his hands to wipe his tears away. He immediately pulled me towards him to his chest. It startled me, and might have just splashed water all over the floor. But that didn't matter. I held onto him with my hands around his neck. He pulled me close and wrapped his arms around my waist. He hid his head inside my neck. His shakes breath was hot on my skin.

"My father shouldn't have hurt you, I'm so sorry." He cried.

"Laurence it's okay, you saved me, I'm alright."

"No it's not!" Fury rose in his voice. "I didn't save you from the nether did I? I didn't save you from that rapist either! I'm utterly, completely useless..." I stopped moving completely. He's been holding all of this in from me for so long...

"Laurence stop, please. You're skipping over all the times you did help me. Remember that time I was out of control on that bed with Zoey next to me. You helped me become sane again. Also remember how you helped me after my father died. Let me even go back to the time where I was bullied by the mean guys as a kid and you were the only one who stood up for me. You are my savior in all of these situations. Laurence you are the complete opposite of useless. Have you ever thought of your accomplishments? You've become an amazing father, a strong knight, and an amazing lover. Please stop lowering yourself to such standards. Think about your friends who love you. Think about your daughter, Dahlia and how she needs you as a father. Think about me who couldn't live without you by my side." Laurences whole body went stiff. I pushed away from him so I could look at his face. He removed his hands from my back and placed them on my cheeks. He pulled me in close for a kiss. It was a sorrowful kiss, one with so much love and regret. I wrapped my legs around his waist deepening the kiss more. His hands slipped back down to my waist, somehow pulling us closer than we already were. His touch was warm and careful. He released the kiss looking at me eagerly. I immediately pressed my lips back to his, hopefully he got his answer when I did that. We got a little hot and heavy after that, and that's all I'm saying...