MEET PROJECT X, MY "EX"

TRUTH; rebellious

LISA POV

The interrogations finally finished. We left the room and I was full of mixed emotions.

I was really stunned with what Jennie said earlier, saying that I was her EX, I am so pissed with Kai that I want to skin him alive. But I can't show much of my emotions or she'll know.

Like fuck men. My perspective with them won't really change anymore. I've been through a lot of cases and incidents with men and they were all the worse experiences in my life. Although, V is an exception.

•FLASHBACK•

Here I am sitting in the car again with my parents arguing.

I'm tired of this. I feel like a useless child that I can't even fight for my mom.

Looking at my dad, I just realized how much of a dick head he is. He never treated me like a daughter, he's a heavy drinker and always gets violent towards us, and he fucking cheats on my mom.

Like what a complete asshole. Me and my mom attempted to leave a few times. But security is too tight and we always get sabotaged if we got caught. Life sucked for me.

That's why I turned rebellious. I didn't want to face the drama all the time. I don't want to feel pain. I just became numb and cold towards everything and everyone, including my mom. I'm a fucking mess as a teen.

Now I feel useless, I also realize how my mom has been feeling. I looked at the rear mirror of the car. I can see the sadness through her eyes. I've never imagined what's going through that mind of hers. I've never had the chance to really ask her how's she feeling or how's her day, like I used to.

Life for her probably sucked more. She has a problematic husband and her one and only child who use to be so cute and nice turned rebellious.

I wish I should've just stayed as me, stayed by her side. I could see all the pain in her eyes. I could see that she's holding back her tears.

My dad still kept screaming to my mom. I was sitting  at the back seat so I scoot over behind mom. I held her arms without her knowing. She jolted from her seat with my touch. I caressed it and felt her shoulders drop as she felt relieved. She reciprocated and held my hands. She turned her head to look at me. And All I could see was pure happiness, love, and hope through her eyes. She smiled at me sweetly. I smiled back to her.

I mouthed a 'sorry' to her for I don't know what reason. I just feel like I had to at this moment.

She shook her head and mumbled "it's okay, it's not your fault." Then she smiled.

A tear dropped from my mom's face. I wiped it off, Then I mouthed again. I said 'i love you so much'

And she held my hands again, tighter this time. "Me too, mom had always loved you. Always remember that." She said almost whispering with a satisfaction smile plastered  in her face.

She couldn't really say it loud enough because my dad kept on spitting disgusting words to her but hearing that from my mom was good enough, or even better to convince me that I should change my life. To be a better child and stay by her side again no matter what. Protect her from all the harm and keep her away from disgusting men, like my dad.

So I caressed her hand again and let go. I sat back in my seat but dad was still bickering. I've had enough with his obnoxious mouth and personality.

"Enough!" I screamed. My dad seemed shocked and looked at me at the rear view of his mirror.

"Oh our little girl, getting braver huh?" He said with an evil smirk. 

Business men with their dirty works.

"Stop the car, we're going down!" I said almost demanding.

"Little girl, do you really think I would do that?" He said with a mocking tone.

"Yes, you would if there's still some human left inside if you." I said that made him scoffed.

"Oh so I'm not human?" He said and you could hear him getting annoyed and mad.

"You were never one, dad. Actually, you were never my dad. And you were never human at all. You treated me like shit and especially mom! I've had enough of you and your fucking unlawful acts!" I said sternly and yet firmly.

"So please, if you want to be a father and a husband for at least once. Stop the car, and let us go." I added almost weak.

But that didn't seem to work. I felt like I added fuel to the burning pit of fire. He is more angry now.

"You ungrateful little piece of shit!" He screamed while trying to grabbed my shirt with one of his hand.

My mom was shocked and tried to pull him apart from me.

He turned to me, now leaving his driving. "As if you were a good daughter! You were a fucking big mess obligation! You fucked up your own life!" He said that made me realize that I truly wasn't a good daughter not to him, but to my mom. I was a pain in the head these past few years. And All I could really do now was to sincerely apologize to her.

This current situation is really dangerous. He was driving but he wants to slit my throat at the same time. Not that I care if he wants to kill me, I just want my mom at safety.

So I tried to fight back and pull away with my full force because we might get into an accident.

My eyes grew wider when I saw a truck coming at our direction.

"A truck! A truck!" I said but he still won't let go of me and he was still stepping on the gas. The car was still speeding up.

"Fuck! Let go! A truck!" I screamed again.

He still wasn't letting go.

I looked at my mom who's crying still trying to help me. I feel like we had no much time. So I held her in the arm tightly. She looked at me.

I said "I love you mom, I'm sorry for everything. Forgive me."  Tears streamed down my face.

"I told you, it's not your fault. I love you so much more." She said and felt like everything went slow-mode. I held her really tight and closed my eyes. My life literally flashed before my eyes.
And-

*boom*
There was darkness and silence.
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(I'll continue the flashback on the next chapter)(bcos it's quite long 😅 sorry)

Hey peeps! How's it goin?? Hope everyone is having a nice day!

Guess lisa ain't a robot after all ????

(There might've been disturbing words that might've triggered some so I'm very sorry. It's just part of the story)