Just friends....

finding out

It's been a while but the other day a girl from our group saw us smiling at eachother from across the room and Hailey winked at me and I winked back and this girl came over and hit me with s Bible ....sister Jane didn't see.
It's the end of year nine and I feel like having fun and just being me,I'm not Catholic no matter what people think. A friend from primary school (who I some how kept in touch with) invited us to a house party so we are going to go tomorrow during prayers,hymns and dinner and hopefully get back sometime.
We walked into the party holding hands and it was the best, we may have had a bit too much alcohol and did some things,we both ended up losing our crosses and giving our Bibles to the homeless guy whilst walking home,that's all I remember,the rest is a big blur.
In the morning I went to breakfast with the biggest headache and rumor spread that Hailey and I were dating (which of course was true but we couldn't tell anyone). Someone told sister Jane and she called our parents,we got called into the church during our free time to have a lecture on how if we were gay it was a massive sin and we would be kicked out of school (at this point I wasn't listening and I didn't give a damn ,my head was throbbing).
They made us re study the Bible,we got moved to opposite sides of the boarding school and they made it harder for us to see eachother,when Hailey got her free time I had extra study lessons about the lord's words vice versa. We only saw eachother in lessons and even then we were put at separate ends of the classroom,sometimes exchanging a quick glance and for that little period of time I would feel happy. We weren't even allowed to sit next to eachother during eating or anything.
Sometimes we would sneak behind the chapel and hope we wouldn't get caught,just being in her arms and being able to kiss her on the forehead and tell her one day we will be able to kiss and not be scared of what is going to happen next.
We saw a sister coming and we both ran in opposite directions,hoping no one saw us.
It's was dinner and Hailey was sat across the room and I couldn't get my mind off of her .....she's one in 7.4billion and I'll do anything to make sure she is safe and happy.