Ana [PJM FF] ✔︎

Ana

"LEAVE ME ALONE!" Jimin screamed as he tried to yank his hand away from Anas tight grip but it didn't happen. She only tightened it and Jimin fell down onto the floor onto his knees, his eyes tearing up now, threatening to fall. She yanked his hand again, making him fall forward onto his stomach and then rolling onto his back. He was groaning from the pain and the tears that he was holding in were now rolling down his cheeks, on to the wooden floor below him.

"Where do you think you're going?" she asked calmly but through gritted teeth. Her chest rising up and down from anger.

"I just wanted to go and meet Yoongi in a cafe." he whispered quietly as his tears were still flowing.

"And did you ask my permission?" she asked, now more irritated.

"No." he said before he raised his hand up in defense, ready to be punched or dragged again. He heard her chuckle before she spoke.

"Okay. But in a cafe? Without me? You won't tell anyone about me or they'll leave you. They will never believe you and think you're just in need of attention. You fat worthless piece of shit. you disgust me." She said before walking away and leaving Jimin alone on the cold floor, sobbing quietly.

Some minutes later he got up and walked lifelessly do the bathroom and stared at his reflection from the mirror. He disgusted himself. He hated himself. He wanted to die. He picked up his phone that was buzzing like crazy. He had 137 messages from Dan wich he didn't want to even open.

He lifted up his shirt to see all the scars on his body but while he was looking, his eyes came across his cheeks and stomach. It wasn't flat. He wasn't thin. He seemed... fat to himself.

He hated the reflection that was staring back at him. He skipped lunch and breakfast but it didn't feel enough. He quickly turned away from the mirror and walked out of the bathroom into the corridor. He slid his shoes on and placed the black cap on his head and pulled it really down, embarrassed of his own face.

He looked back to see Ana standing there, looking at him angrily and evilly but at the same time, she was disgusted to see him. Jimin gulped before turning the doorknob and walking out of his apartment, making his way to the cafe he was meant to meet Yoongi. His best friend.

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Opening the cafe door, he spots the older male right away and sat in front of him. He smiled politely at him and Jimin did his eye smile, that was forced by himself.

"Hello, Jimin! How are you doing at the moment?" Yoongi asked as he leaned forward a little bit.

"I'm doing... fine. I'm okay. What about you?" Jimin asked and Yoongi looked at him for a second confused but brushed it off and replied.

"I'm actually doing great. There's this one girl that I talk to now for some months and I kinda like her so I'm going to confess next months." Jimin nodded slowly before Yoongi spoke again.

"What do you want to order? I'm thinking about a piece of chocolate cake and a coffee."

Jimin thought for a second before Ana's voice screamed in his minds her words all over again-  You fat worthless piece of shit. You disgust me.

"No. I don't want anything. I'm not hungry." Jimin said and Yoongi nodded and lifted his hand to signal that they were ready to order. Soon, a waiter came their way and asked their orders.

"Ah, please two dark coffee's with sugar and a piece of chocolate cake. And that's all. Thank you!" he said as the waiter walked away with their orders. Jimin looked confused and asked him.

"Why did you order two coffee's?" 

"Because I don't want you to starve. You're drinking it and there's no other option." Jimin wanted to protest but thought that there was no point in it so he changed the topic.

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Home. The place he had started to hate the most. The place where his thoughts were the loudest and his mind the darkest. 

Ana the loudest and the meanest. Forcing him to do things he never imagined hed too.

Ana. He needed to get rid of her but how? He couldn't. Not by himself. But what if Ana was right? 

You won't tell anyone about me or they'll leave you. They will never believe you and think you're just in need of attention.

He looked to behind himself to see Ana standing there with an evil grin plastered onto her face. He started to go slowly insane...