heartache / Lara-Fina

lonely lover

I've reached the days when thoughts of you no longer torment me. You have disappeared from my dreams at night and I am free of you. Because I am convinced that you were never truly in love with me. I have lost the hope that you really could love me and that our relationship was valuable to you for a long time. Because in fact you are only one of those who are lonely at night and want to fill this void with someone. Someone who doesn't take feelings and needs so seriously. Someone who can only get rid of the feeling of being alone with a company. 

Even though you mentioned to your new girl that you really thought at the beginning that I could be one of your true loved ones, you were probably never in love with me. All you saw about me was my comprehension, which made me seem so easily manipulated. You loved the idea that I loved you so much. In actuality you were not in love with me as a person, but with the one who would still love you with all his heart in your worst condition. 

No wonder one day you decided to enjoy yourself with another woman while I was crying in my bed and needed you. I should have realized earlier that you only took care of me when you wanted something from me. Because you were only focused on your sexual desires and needs, which in your opinion I should have satisfied.

For when I refused to do this for you, your loneliness returned. The loneliness that I took from you with my attention and love. And since you are a lonely lover, you felt compelled to move on and put your fingers on the skin of another woman. I can't blame you, because in the end you were just lonely. And I don't deserve a lonely lover who only loves my attention. I want to be loved as a person.