I met the guy that only I can see........

9. I wanted to Die....But

AG was still sat there, thinking about his future moves, so that he can complete his mission and get the hell outta here, cause it's hard to deal with emotions. 

"Ok now I get it, so I need to gather some shields, and some weapons, now the war is going to begin." He said to himself, remembering Sharon's aggression. 

From now onwards I will try to control my emotions and I will not show my weak side to anyone( even to that Old Man, I felt so weak today) 

"But how we gonna deal with that red face?" his angelic voice questioned him.

"About that, Ummm, I also donno how but we will manage it" he gave assurance to himself. 

"First we need to figure out more about her, like before that tragedy, How was she? Is she having that rage problem from childhood or it developed after that accident? And the main thing how her parents died?" 

AG was into deep brainstorming, Question-Answer session when he realized that the temperature in the atmosphere has dropped, now it's getting more colder. So he decided to head for home. It was quite late at night cause he was walking all alone on the streets, looking at above, in sky, his memories appeared in front of him. 

"Don't forget that you used to be powerful and the handsome guy," his angelic voice said in a sad voice.

"Yeah, but no at least we know that how it feels to be sad. Up in there(in heaven), we used to know only smile, happiness, and looking at the earth we used to tease people that they are weak, but I think it takes a lot struggle, courage to be alive on the earth."

AG was learning the new forms of emotion. 

Then again that light appeared, 

"Oh, I thought we will meet in next week, but you are already here, this is amazing, this is our second meet session since morning" AG said in amusement.

"It's because of you learning fast, so I came here to remind you of the feeling that newly developed in your heart" that golden dust said, pointing towards AG's heart. 

"Then it's a piece of great news, I will regain my powers soon," he said with a roguish voice. 

Yeah, but before that let me tell you something, the thoughts you were thinking now, the feeling which emerged in your heart, is known as Empathy, to feel sorry about people, to understand their situation. And next feeling you should learn is 'Forgiveness'. You should forgive that girl's mistakes and try to understand her, she suffered a lot, you have to take care of her in coming 48 hours." 

And as always that light faded in dark.

"Hey bro, what did that old man meant by the last line? That do we need to cook breakfast and supper for her, to take care of her?" AG's angelic voice asked him in confusion. 

"I also didn't get what he meant by that last line, forget about it, let's get to home first."

Sharon's POV

I was looking at the clock, yeah it's 12.00 at night. So it's that fateful day, it's the day, where I also died along with my parents, my emotions, my caring, happy nature, it all died on this same day. I am just existing on this earth physically. 

"Death is strange........" I was crying, cursing that superior. I just wanted to cry aloud and wanted to die, I don't want to live my life in grin and guilt. The feeling was unbearable so I decided something really big , I... I decided to see my parents, by myself and for that, the only way was "DEATH."

So, I went into the kitchen and grab a Knife which was like a sword but small, only in size, not in its sharpness. So this is my final decision. I made a firm choice. And then I thought of my memories with my family, for the last time, cause soon I will be able to see them and I'm ready to slit my wrist, I know I'm ready for this( i was not afraid or something, rather I was confident) so on the count of three....."One......Two.."

"Three" someone said this from the darkness of the corner. And I got startled coz I thought, I am alone here.

I backed off as two eyes were starring me and giving me a death glare. As he appeared from the darkness, his manly figure got more visible, His eyes were on fire.

"Don't come near me else I will cut myself"(What the hell I am talking, why would he care if I live or die) I commanded him giving tough look.

"Ok then kill yourself," he said with an unconcerned voice.

(Thank God, he is on my side only ) as I thought he will try to stop me

"But think about why you lived all these years?"

That one question crossed my mind just like the bullet came from AK 47. And I really tried to think why am I lived all these years all alone?

I was in deep thought, still holding that knife, I put it on the kitchen counter unconsciously and came in Living room, I was excessively drawn into my thoughts, where AG broke the silence.

"Your parents sacrificed their own lives to save you and hence you should live, even if you don't want to," he said. 

Tears began to slip from my face, one by one,  and I saw our family portrait hanging on the fine blue wall, with Golden frame. Three happy faces were smiling at me. Looking at those memories I lost all of my energy and collapsed on the couch.

"I don't want to live please let me die" I begged in front of AG.

"Get up now" his sharp voice plop with my sensitive emotions.

I didn't even budge from the same place, then he sat near me. He was saying something, but I didn't catch a single word and continue to curse myself and my life.

 "My life is useless, at least after death I can gain some peace." 

I really wanted someone to stab me, make me die, even it will be painful but I will deal with that pain rather than this living(just existing) pain.

AG holds me firmly with my both hands and, and he was saying something, but I didn't get the single word, cause I was in my own thoughts, I was so numb as I was staring at his face continuously without a single emotion in my heart, mind or face. 

And then nothing just like a black hole, a void, in which all my emotions got stuck. And then a black screen in front of my eyes..........