the falls of autumn

chapter 8

End of Sophomore year

Charlie

I just finished finals and I'm sleeping and I hear a scream. I run downstairs and I see my dad standing there. My mother is dead on the floor, blood is everywhere. She gave up. She didn't even tell me goodbye. She never showed any signs of an unhappy mother. When was she sad, I don't understand. She was so happy that she made new friends with our neighbors. I don't know what to feel, I'm mad because I could have helped her, but I did nothing. But I had no idea she was depressed or anything. I'm mad she did this to us. To me.

I lay in bed and cry. I don't even hear someone come in my room, I feel the bed dip and I see my dad with tear stained cheeks on my bed. We hug and cry together. We had no idea. Oh, what people hide behind a smile.

This was the end of my mother's story. And half of the end of mine.

The day after next we have her funeral. She had told us to bury her in the forest next to her old garden in the country. So that is what we did. I need answers I wonder who hurt her, was it me? Was it my father? Why would she do this to me? I cry on my dad's shoulder and I don't stop till I'm in my room alone. I wish she would have told me what she was going through. I could have helped instead of walking a dog.

My mother's doctor just called, turns out my mother was battling cancer without any of us knowing. She had the hospital keep it a secret till now which was her death. The hospital knew and didn't think to tell us before my mother died?! How could she tell a stranger but not her own family? I do not understand. Life is really hard and sucks sometimes and I know she would want me to be strong but it hurts, it hurts soo much.

I am sleeping and I hear the loud doorbell go out throughout the entire house. I decided that I am going to actually try today and I go to answer the door. I see two people a man and a who man who looks familiar. I open the door and ask," how may I help you?"
"Hello, are you Charlie Autumn?"
" Yes"
" Oh my sweet child, we're your birth parents."

Do you seriously decide to come in my life after my mother dies?! I shut the door and go to my room and sleep. I cannot deal with these people right now I'm hungry tired and I really want a bubble bath.

I go to my room and grab some bath bombs and run some bath water. I put on QUEEN. My favorite artists of all time. They really speak to me even when I'm going through a rough time. I hope in the bath and I sink down to my head being under water. I always liked doing this but my hair is a curly mess it a tragically mess to do afterward. I lay down in my bed thinking about my life. My life can be seen as a very easy rich life as the daughter of a cardiologist. 

Life is not easy just because my parents have money. Life can be sometimes harder, having money gives me access to things that other people may never even think of doing. Everyday I'm exposed to things that even people with no money would frown on.