poems

we all fall

when i look at you i see a fool 

a shell of the person i once knew

you made me hurt

you made me cry 

i don't understand

WHY

do i have to deal with this burden of life

i can apologize a million times 

yet never feel relief

because you always criticize me

i can never learn from my mistakes 

they are all mistakes in your eyes

and now i see them in mine

my vision clouded with red lines

every mistake marked 

made obviously clear 

i knew what needed to be fixed 

yet when you remained in my life

my life was underlined

that giant red line

it made me hurt 

it made me cry

yet i never could fix that 

my imperfections

they never went away 

they always found a way to enclose me in self hate

 you didn't get enough with confusing others 

you had to infect me

some how tho 

it helped me make others realize they were 

beautiful

amazing

smart 

courageous

it made me see them how i couldn't see myself 

i could fix other

i put back together as much of the pieces i could

Even with my fingers cut up and bleeding

I somehow was able to make them better

they still had cracks

yet they could stand on their own

but somehow i couldn't fix myself

i am broken 

i am flawed

yet i feel the most broken of them all

no one can help me 

they cant see their reflection in a broken mirror 

so they just throw me away 

or see if they can use me another day

im always set aside

no one wants to cut their fingers

just to fix a broken mirror

so ill just hide my shards 

never let anyone try to fix me

but i am content with this 

its okay 

im okay