poems

hey mom

Hey mom,

I have a question

Do you really love me

Or is it the idea of me

you always call me names

stupid and more

you know how I yearn for attention

but I feel as though im shut out

did you think about how

I die inside when you cry because of me

Because im to bad for you to deal with

I know its my fault and I wish I had never been born

But for some sick reason I was

God wanted to give you more problems I guess

And I truly feel bad for you

Having to deal with something like me

And I want to sincerely apologize for being born

For making you cry

For making you hate being alive

You know mom I hear when you say you wanna die

And I think it stems on my depression

You make me also wanna die

But its ok Ive felt that way since nine

I want to apologize for everything ive done

Im sorry I cant die just yet ive made to many promises

So if you can just be ok till I move out

Ill get a job and help you manage

You over work yourself with us

With HIM

So Ill do everything I can

To help you with the load

I wanna apologize to you in so many ways

But im a coward

A bitch

And I cant find the words to say

So ill try my hardest to be the best I can

Im sorry mom

I love you,

From Me.