i feel it again
that feeling of pure hatred, one that envelopes me like a cloud of smoke
i know i shouldn't feel it, but it's valid
i know when there's something there, when something is purposely malicious
and thats what it was, what it's been
im over it. sososo over it.
but i cant say anything, can't i? no. i keep quiet because then it'll all come crashing down, an avalanche of all of my emotions
i cant do that, of course not, not her, not with her being the way she is
im fueled by fire, but as soon as it gets too much, i blow out. but the embers are left. those burning hot embers that control me.
i hate feeling like this, like im hated
like my feelings don't matter because of my tough front
but they do they do they do they do
it's all valid, im valid.
