I knew you before// Trevor Moran

Chapter 38

**3 YEARS LATER**

Nothing. That's all my life has become, nothing. What is the point in living anymore? Over the last three years I've been abused, raped, laughed at and more. I guess Trevor and Joey gave up looking for me. I've started cutting again. After being 5 years clean. I change into a black sweater with daisies on it and a pair of skinny jeans. I walk downstairs and into the living room.

"Who said you could come downstairs?" Taylor asks.

"I-I," I stutter, unable to answer.

"Answer me!" he yells. He grabs my wrist harshly and I wince. He rolls up my sleeve and see's my cuts. His face changes from anger to sadness, tears start to brim his eyes.

"Lowri I-" I run off before I can hear the rest.

I run into a random room, and I'm guessing it's a music room. I walk over to a guitar and begin to play a song.

"I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted

I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way you tasted

And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?

When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?

Sometimes I stop to wonder, was it just a lie?

If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving

I remember the make-up running down your face

And the dreams you left behind, you didn't need them

Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia

And forget about the stupid little things

Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you

And the memories that I never can escape

Cause I'm not fine at all

The pictures that you sent me, they're still living in my phone

I'll admit I like to see them, I'll admit I feel alone

And all my friends keep asking why I'm not around

It hurts to know you're happy, yeah it hurts that you moved on

It's hard to hear your name when I haven't seen you in so long

It's like we never happened, was it just a lie?

If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

Cause I'm not fine at all

I remember the day you told me you were leaving

I remember the make-up running down your face

And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them

Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia

And forget about the stupid little things

Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you

And the memories that I never can escape

If today I woke up with you right beside me

Like all of this was just some twisted dream

I'd hold you closer than I ever did before

And you'd never slip away

And you'd never hear me say

I remember the day you told me you were leaving

I remember the make-up running down your face

And the dreams you left behind you didn't need them

Like every single wish we ever made

I wish that I could wake up with amnesia

And forget about the stupid little things

Like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you

And the memories that I never can escape

Cause I'm not fine at all

No, I'm really not fine at all

Tell me this is just a dream

Cause I'm really not fine at all" I sing. I hear two people clapping. I look over to the door and see Shawn and Taylor.

"That was amazing Lowri!" Shawn exclaims. He runs over and hugs me.

"Thanks Shawn," I laugh at his reaction. He walks away and Taylor walks over. I turn my back to him.

"Um, hi Lowri, I just wanted to say that you're really talented," he says. I continue to ignore him.

"And to show that I'm sorry for what I did to you, I bought you a plane ticket back to LA, you leave tonight,"

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Weren't expecting that now were you? The video on the side is what her singing voice sounds like!

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