𝐃𝐎𝐍'𝐓 𝐍𝐄𝐄𝐃 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄, ⁿᶜᵗ ᵈʳᵉᵃᵐ ᶠᵗ ʰʳᵛʸ

𝒔𝒖𝒅𝒅𝒆𝒏 𝒃𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒌𝒅𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒐𝒇 𝒆𝒎𝒐𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏𝒔

ㅡ y/n

I woke up in my classroom, feeling so anxious all of a sudden. I stand up from my chair and head towards the door but instead, I saw Jeongin with Xiyeon, kissing.

My eyes widened when I saw Jeongin holding the letter I made for him. I start feeling tears falling from my eyes.

I walk back until I feel myself falling. I look up and realized that I was falling in a hole and I saw my tears as I fall.

I look down and saw a floor and I was about to hit it. I shut my eyes until..

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I ended waking up in DNYL's clubroom. I noticed Jisung still asleep beside me on his chair.

I sighed in relief before sadness take over me once again. I stand up, leaving my phone on the table with Jisung before leaving the classroom.

I run to the gymnasium, notching that it was empty. I sit down on the benches, hugging my legs and just let my tears fall.

"I hate this weak heart.."

ㅡ renjun

I entered the classroom and saw Jisung sleeping there. I glace at the other boys who looks confused as well.

"Jisung, Jisung!" Jaemin shouted, making Jisung jump.

"Why are you here? Did you even go home?" Harvey asked and Jisung looked around. He looked at the windows and his eyes widened.

"Guess not.." He said, mischievously smiling. He looked at the chair beside him before he starts to look confused.

"Y/n.. she was with me. Her bag is still here." He said and our eyes widened.

"She was what!? Where is she now then?" Chenle said, almost shouting. I saw her phone on the table so, we couldn't call her.

I drop my bag and run out of the classroom, start to look for her. I went to her classroom but she's not there.

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I tried to catch my breath as I stand in front of the gymnasium. I opened the doors and look around and I finally found y/n on the side.

She was crying, crawled into a ball.

"Y/n..." I close the door and walked towards her, sitting beside her.

"Y/n.. What's wrong?" I said, patting her back gently. She looked at me and I felt weak when I saw her red and puffy eyes.

"I hate this weak heart of mine. I can't handle my feelings in the end." She said, tearing up even more.

I hold her hand, kissing it before I embrace her.

"It's okay... I also can't handle my feelings sometimes." I said, admitting it.

I still cry over Xiyeon but not as much as before but y/n has been through so much and it pains my heart.

"But you handle yours better than me. I immediately get weak when I all I saw was Jeongin with Xiyeon, I immediately feel like crying." She said but I only shake my head.

I kneel down in front of her to have her looking at me.

"You're brave," I said which made her confused.

"You're brave because you're can cry and vent out these feelings while I can't do that most of the time I want to." I cupped her cheeks, wiping her tears away.

"You're so much braver than me because of your feelings and as a friend, I don't want you getting too sad about this.

I care so much about you and I don't want to lose you as well because even in such a short amount of time, I already feel close to you.

So, whenever you feel like breaking down, tell me or the boys, okay?" I said and she nodded, jumping into my arms.

"Thank you, Renjun.." She said softly and I chuckled, caressed her hair.

"These are where you've been." We both turn our heads to the door and saw Harvey there with a worried yet soft smile on his face.

"I don't wanna be rude or seen rude but are you traumatized of your past relationship, y/n?" He asked and our eyes widened.

I look at y/n who was just looking down, nodding.

"You're traumatized?" I asked and she nodded.

"Yeah, why didn't you tell me!? I could've just watched over you." I said, playfully shaking her shoulders which made her chuckle.

"I'll get over it.." She said softly and Harvey walks towards us.

"That's what DNYL is for after all," Harvey said, patting her head.

"Y/n!! This is where you are~" We heard Jaemin's voice and run up to y/n.

"Come on and eat with us. Jisung will eat too." He said, dragging her out and I stand up, watching them leave.

"Renjun," Harvey called me and I looked at him.

"It looks like it wouldn't be long until then." He said and I look at him in confusion.

"What do you mean?"

"It won't be long until someone will find a relationship again." And with that, he exited the gym.

"What you talking about?"

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