Frerard: I'm Not Afraid To Keep On Living

Chapter 8: The Light Behind Your Eyes

Gerard's POV:

"Frank, meet Autumn, Autumn, meet Frank." I say calmly, I really did want Frank to meet her sometime and I don't remember if there's a cure for brain cancer so this may be my only chance...

"Well, hi there, beautiful! How are you today?!" Frank cooed, he was so adorable, not like that, when he was helping children...

Autumn giggled as he made silly faces at her, she is so happy... But the chemo therapy... It sometimes does stuff to people, like tear them apart, make them not want to live... I can't even, don't even want, to imagine what it will do to Autumn.

"Gee. Did Daddy say he's sorry?" She asks me after Frank says that he's run out of ideas to make her laugh.

"Yes, cutie pie, he did. Did you tell him that?" I grab her sides and start to tickle her.

"Mr. Way, I'm sorry to cut this little reunion short but, I believe your meal is coming up soon and if I recall correctly that's one of the reasons why you're here in the first place..." The doctor said to make it not so obvious to Autumn about my disorder.

"Oh. Right. Autumn, sweetie, you take care, okay? Get better soon." I smiled at her and took her hand for a moment and held it but then I let go to push myself back to my room.

"Gee, wait." She grabs the back of my wheelchair, "Promise me you'll get better. Okay?" She says it like the day she first asked me if I was okay so I can't help get teary-eyed, a kid, who has cancer, worries more about you than they worry about themselves.

"Okay." I turn around to go back to my room but not without turning back to look at Autumn, she was about to fall of the side of the bed but, she blew me a kiss, and I blew one back. When I did... I saw a light behind her eyes that I hope she doesn't lose the next time that I see her.

Frank's POV:

"She was soooooooo adorable... Where'd cha meet her?" I asked Gerard as he stuffed his mouth full of a chicken sandwich. It was good to see him eating again...

"Y-yeah she was... I-I........ can't believe that she has.... cancer though," he was trying to talk and chew, kind of complicated to do, especially when you're "ill", "and I...... met h-her in t-that one park..... by m-my house *gulp* ugh. That hit the spot, and sorry for my talking while eating I'm just really excited since you finally met that little ball of sunshine..." He was beaming, I've never seen him this happy... It's kinda weird... In a good way!

"So, bro, like you were saying before we had that scene, what are we gonna do about 'practice'?" If he backed out, I'd be a little upset, I really wanna spend more time with Gerard, he's a great guy...

"Ummmm maybe you could come to my house and we could have a jam session like everyday or every other day? I don't know, it's up to you..." He seems to be blushing for some reason, maybe he really likes me! This is great, I remember how mom used to tell me that I just need that one friend who's always got my back... And I think it's Gerard

Gerard's POV:

Wow. I can't believe I just did that, I actually got the courage to invite someone over, now it's up to my mom if that's actually a possibility. Knowing her, it's probably gonna be a yes because she still doesn't care about me, even though it's been two months since dad's death...

"Dude, you know if love that! Thanks man." he comes up to me and hugs me on the bed and it's not an awkward hug it's one of those hugs you give people when you really care about them, and hope for the best...

"Ummmmm sorry if that was weird I just thought it was an exciting moment and I just... I wanted to hug you, that's all..." I knew there was something that he wasn't telling me but, I let it slide it was too good of a moment for an argument to go down.

"Nah, man. It's fine. I understand I do that too! Hahahaaahahha I guess we're both a little weird, right?" I laughed and lightly nudged him with my arm.

"Hahahahha right!" And we laughed until I heard the steady drop of my monitor beeps going down.

"Shit, Gerard are you okay?!??" Frank was on me in an instant, I could still breath I could just barely see, my mouth felt dry so I told him, "water..."

He sprung up from my lap and as far as I could hear, since my eyes were now closed, he got to the sink very, very quickly and got two glasses of water.

He put one of them in my hand, "Here drink," his hands felt soft and warm on mine and my monitor picked up by a lot of beats, "what? You're better already?!? Then why the hell did I just run and get you water?!?!?"

I was too busy drinking the water for me to answer, honestly I think his body heat surprised me that's why it spiked...

"*gulp* it's because I was dehydrated and I was about to faint, again. Stupid nurses, they may serve a good meal but, they always forget a drink..." I laugh at my own comment and Frank laughs too.

"Well in that case maybe I can stick around to help you with your 'problem'"

"Yeah. That'd be great..." I mean that, it's nice having another guy around, someone who understands me, unlike Mikey....

*a week later Gerard's house*

Frank's POV:

"So should we go over the lyrics or should we go through the rhythm?" I ask Gerard as he gnaws on the top of my pencil.

"What? Sorry I was just thinking about something..." He seems focused sometimes but, other times he's very distant, it's a little strange but I figure that it's just how he writes.

"I said: should we go over the lyrics or the rhythm?" He's now staring at me as I look back up from the music and I smile and ask, "You feelin' alright?"

"Yeah. Thanks for asking. And I say both, I wanna see how it sounds together.... I'll sing," and he started the countdown,"So long to all my friends , everyone one of them met tragic ends..."