box of words || breaking

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"don't you ever think that this relationship is a... toxic relationship?" he asked me while staring right into my eyes.

I looked at him with a confuse look yet still trying to smile. "w-what? no, absolutely not. why would you even think about it?"

"well I just feel like it is."

I stared back at him. "can you please define toxic?"

"I feel like, I often make you feel.. worthless." he stops and takes his breath heavily. "I often makes you sad, angry, and many other things. don't you—you know, want to be happy?"

"well I'm happy with you. it doesn't matter if you hurt me, but I love you and that makes me happy."

he smiles and say thank you with no sound.

do you think it's a happy ending story?
no.

after he said thank you with no sound, he grab my hand and said, "but I'm not worthy for you. I'm sorry, it's for the best of us."

he left me with smiles and say it's for the both of us.

he said he left me so I can be happy.

but actually,
I'm happy with him. only him.