Just This Time (A Darren Espanto Fanfic)

~Chapter 4~

JESSINICA'S POV

I just finished training for today. As was about to leave, my coach suddenly approached me.

"Jessinica, can I talk to you for a while?"she said.

"uhhhhhhh...... sure coach...what is it po??" I said.

"I think something has been bothering you lately. You haven't been performing well these past few days you know... I just want to tell you that even as your coach, you can also talk to me about things."she said.

I didn't want to tell her about what's been bothering me. I just dont feel comfortable with telling it to somebody.

"Uhhhmmmm... I'm fine po coach, don't worry. I'm sorry if I wasn't performing well enough. I'll promise to do better po."I said.

"Ok."she said.

Then I left after she could ask me more questions.

When I arrived at home, my parents weren't there. As usual, they're busy doing work. They have no time for me anyway or if they do, they spend it on pushing me to do things and lecturing me every minute.

"Good evening po ma'am Jessinica." said our household helper.

"Good evening din po."I said.

"What would you like for dinner po?"she asked.

"Uhhmm.... no thank you I'm fine. I'm not that hungry. I just want to rest, I'm tired with all the training and I also have assignments." I said.

"Ok po." she said.

I was about to head for my room when I stopped.

"uhh----...."I hesitated.

"What is it po ma'am?"our helper asked.

But then I just let the words out,"Will mom and dad be coming home tonight?"I asked.

"Uhhh.. no po ma'am they're out of town. They said they'll be back on weekend."she said.

Of course they will...why did I even bother to hope.

"Ohh...uhh.. ok...thanks."I said.

Then I headed straight for my room and plopped on my bed. I got lost in thought again.

Don't they love me? Even before I've been very affected by their absence. They're always not here. And when they're here, it feels like they're not. I am their only child and they couldn't even give time to spend with me as my parents. I did everything they ever wanted me to do. I can't even choose for myself. I abandoned my choices and all that I liked because of them. Everything was forbidden.

I didn't know what to do. I feel like dying. Like, a big piece of me is missing. I feel so.................incomplete. And like something's wrong with me.

Tears streamed down my face. I cuddled into my pillow for a while just to relax. After a while, I started doing my homework. And then I slept early, I didnt feel like doing anything else.

--next day--

As usual, my noisy alarm clock started to buzz again. I had no choice but to get up.

Another day to start...ughh!!

It's Thursday so...civillian day!! Which means no school uniform. I can wear anything I want. I wore my blue and black oversized shirt that said 'Keep Cool' and i folded the sleeves coz duh! it's oversized. I also wore some maong shorts and lastly I put on my combat boots.

I went downstairs to eat breakfast coz I'm starving. When I went down, I was greeted by our cheerful household helpers who've been with me since like I was a toddler or at least that's what my parents say.