Stigma

Chapter 14 - Sinking

Okay..wow...Hi. It's been A WHOLE MINUTE! I'm so sorry for going all MIA on everyone, for literally HALF A YEAR!!! I promise I haven't given up on this story, and i've seen literally all of your lovely comments and will get to replying to them all. 

I've continued to update ao3 but literally didn't get round to updating this cause i've just had so much on! I'm so sorry! But hopefully three long ass chapters will make up for it!!!

I had this chapter basically written, but it just felt all wrong. And then boom the new year hit and my life literally went wild. Blah Blah Blah generic life issues and all that, so when I got back to writing this I tore the whole chapter apart and rewrote it. Thing is, with everything that was going on, it was hard to write THIS chapter is particualr...which brings me onto why this note is at the beginning...

This chapter contains really strong descriptions of self-hatred and attempted suicide, so please, please, please do not read this if you will be triggered in any way. I also don't intend to sensationalize this issue in any way. I've simply written my take on things I have experienced and felt.

I just want to thank you for your patience with this story, and all your kind comments, wishing me well. They honestly help more then you may know.

So now that is all out of the way, I do hope you enjoy this chapter, please do listen to the warnings above, I really don't want this chapter to be harmful in any way.

All the purple in the world, Bibi. <3

"I sink down into my body as into a swamp, fenland, where only I know the footing. Treacherous ground, my own territory. I become the earth I set my ear against, for rumors of the future." Margaret Atwood.

The 7 of them decided it was best to split up, each traveling in twos while Jungkook insisted he tracked alone. They all chose to head back to Yoongi's apartment and spread into different directions from there, wanting to cover as much ground as possible, before considering other areas of Seoul Taehyung could have got to. If he was even still in Seoul, Jungkook swallowed thickly, before shaking the thoughts from his mind. Now was not the time.

Everyone took a whiff of Jungkook's scent for good measure, heightening their instincts to the scent alone before splitting off to track, reminding Jungkook to tamper his pheromones down when they begin to look for the omega, otherwise, they could end up sniffing out Jungkook himself instead of Taehyung. The alpha nodded, watching as his six friends disappeared off into the cover of night. He was left alone.

Sucking in a sharp breath, he naturally tried to find traces of Taehyung's scent around the area, yet came up empty. He let out a growl of frustration, his alpha howling in distress having not been able to get even a whiff of Taehyung since earlier in the day. However, like Lisa suggested, he could smell traces of his own pheromones that were older, as if he had wondered round here earlier when he knew he hadn't. Inhaling deeply once again, he ran off into his allocated direction, making sure to keep track of the weaker scent and tamper away his pheromones. And so he dedicated his entire mind into track that one scent, his sent, knowing it would be the only thing to help him find Taehyung. Find Taehyung, his mind screamed, and his body followed.

Unbeknown to the distressed alpha, Taehyung was closer than he would have thought, wondering the streets aimlessly, searching for something, looking for something. Something to bring him back to himself.

He watched as the people around him began to thin, and the rows of commuters dying down to make way for the darkness of night, Cars seemed too lazy and slow, and everything was twisted and morphed in an unfamiliar disarray. He couldn't hear like he used to. Couldn't smell like he used to. It was like everything he once knew was muted, a world familiar yet inverted, uncanny and disorientating.