Quotes and poems

Feeling Lost In This World

In this life
I once felt hope.
  I sometimes still believe in this,
but each moment a little less.
  I feel abandoned in my despair,
and it's difficult to repair.
  I get broken each day some more,
keeping these emotions in my core.
  I find myself hiding behind this smile,
the one that shows my denial.
  I have thoughts of lonesomeness,
which no person should possess.
  I camouflage this so well;
it feels like I'm in hell.
  I hurt on the inside,
trying to push these demons aside.
  I want something better,
to not feel all this terror.
  I know it can be manageable;
there are things that make life tolerable.
  I just cannot find the thrill,
like when I was a child with a one dollar bill.
  I remember when dreams were imaginable,
now it feels like I'm undoubtedly fallible.
  I wish to find myself soon.
This feels as if I'm trapped in a cocoon.
  I would like to hatch,
not be so detached.
  I need to end this coldness,
before death leaves me soulless.

-D.A.H.