The Assassin

Chapter Ten

I poked Ezethiel. He opened his eyes very slowly, and he smiled once he saw me looking down into his eyes. I stared down into his beautiful blue eyes, and I knew that he could tell I had no clue what had happened last night.

"You drank too much." He said with a chuckle as he sat up on the couch. He pushed a few empty beer bottles on the floor and turned to sit facing me. He smiled. "Sorry."

"W-What are you doing here?" I sat up and pushed myself away from him; knocking more beer bottles off onto the floor of my living room. I stood up and backed away from him. He sat still looking at me.

"You don't remember?"

"No! You can't stay, Ezethiel." I watched as he stood up and approached me. I took a deep breath expecting for him to yell at me or do something stupid. He walked up, and with no warning whatsoever, pressed his lips firmly to mine. I let myself fall into the kiss. Might at well enjoy it while it lasts right? He took both of his hands and held my face gently. After several seconds and pulled about an inch away and whispered softly to me.

"Yes I can." He leaned to kiss my right cheek and glared deep into my eyes. "And I'm gonna."

"I have to live alone."

"Who says?" He replied, he pushed away and walked towards the kitchen. "You say? And what you say goes, huh?" He walked up to a basket and pulled out a chocolate chip cookie and returned to the couch in the living room. I stared at him silently. I knew I coudln't win this fight. 

"Ezethiel..."

"What." He said, acting almost like he couldn't handle making eye contact with me. I walked over and sat close to him on the couch. His face was turned away from me. I reached up with my right hand and pulled his face to look at me. I smiled. I scooted closer and leaned my face in to his.

"I love you too..." I whispered before turning away and standing up. I heard Ezethiel snort. He huffed and sighed. He was angry. "Don't be upset with me." I said firmly. "I'm just not a physical person."

"Not a physical person? Oh, my bad, you're right...you totally weren't a physical person the other night while my di-"

"Okay stop!" I shouted and threw my hands up in the air and spun around to hide my face. "Ew, Ezethiel. Don't remind me." In an instant I felt Ezethiel arms wrapping around my stomach and he pulled me into his body. He held me tightly from behind.

"Who would want to forget that?" He said sofly as he kissed my neck. I tried to pull away, but he held me still in his arms. "When will you see? When will you see that we belong together?"

"I think you've gotten the wrong idea from all of this." I said quietly. "I'm not intereste."

"Yes, you are." He said as he turned me around to face him. He pushed his forehead against mine and stared down into my eyes. "You feel the same towards me as I feel towards you."

"Ezethiel..."

"What..."

"I...just...I just don't know." I backed up a few steps and Ezethiel stood there staring at me. "I've only ever loved once..."

"Yeah, I know. It ended badly. You told me."

"What! I did?!" I said..confused.

"Yes, last night." He gestured to the empty bottles all over the floor. "Let's just say I didn't think someone could get that drunk!" He chuckled, saw the look on my face, and wiped the smile off of his face instantly. "Sorry...just trying to be funny."

"I know." I responded. I thout through everything, desperately trying to figure out if I could actually attempt a relationship with Ezethiel. Part of me wanted to. My body acted as if it wanted to make love to him 24/7, but my mind fought me...telling me to push him away and life out my life alone. Just as I was meant to. I don't know what to do...

Allow myself to love Ezethiel and possibly build a wonderful relationship? Or push him away and fight to live alone like I wanted to in the first place?