she believed she was happy
she believed it
she believed it because she wanted so bad for it to be true
she found that happiness saving other people
drowning herself in the deep seas of their depression
drowning in the need to save everything but herself
she found happiness when she could give someone what they want even if it set her back
happiness; a state of mind. feeling content, satisfied.
it took her a long time to realize she was the happiest sad person
that she was the happiest sad person who prioritized everything but herself
she was the happiest sad person, depended on for her ability to mend a broken heart, soul.
she: the happiest kind of sad
alone
hurt
heartbroken
used
maybe she wasn't the happiest sad person
in fact
maybe she wasn't happy at all
-the happiest sad girl was me.
-the happiest sad girl is me.
-and she was not the people around her
-and she could not save everyone
-and happiest sad girl was going to create a new happiness
a real one
because she is the priority
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Poesíalost thoughts hoping to find a home on paper. (And with that she found her worth was more then a feeling) **new to this whole writing thing. **the feedback means the most xxx ***if you ever need to talk my inbox is open:)
