This Is My Last Note, Goodbye

Bloodshot Red (5)

I saw Alec. I was pretty sure it was him from the height, black shaggy hair, and the Divergent book in his left hand.

I went up to tap him on the right shoulder, but when he turned around...his facial expression was like he was disgusted.

"Hey, you okay?" I asked worryingly.

"Go kill yourself, you worthless, fat, ugly pig."

Once I heard those words coming out of Alec's mouth I started to feel the pool of tears rolling down my face.

I carried on asking him what I did, what he heard about me, and just simply of what was going on.

He replied back with, "Go kill yourself, you worthless, fat, ugly pig," again.

Then I realize his eye color was bloodshot red. I was terrified. I started backing away from him, step by step, but each step I took backwards, he took forwards.

This continued for about ten seconds until I turned areound, and darted for the other direction.

When I looked back a little while later, he wasn't there, but I decided to keep running anyway. I quickly turned my head, so I was looking straight in front of me. But when I turned, I saw Alec standing right there. He was much taller so I couldn't burrow through him, and so I stopped.

"What the hell do you want for me?" I asked while breathing heavily.

"Come here you fat pig," he says with a smirk.

I was so scared, I turned the other way. But before I could take more than one step, Alec was right there in front of me.

I turned to my right, and the same thing happened. Same for my left side. Soon enough I had red eyed Alecs calling me pigs and telling me to kill myself in every which direction.

I crouched down with floods of tears washing down my mascara with my hands over my ears.

In what seemed like seconds...I was trapped in my closet at home. I was still crying, but when I unplugged my ears, I heard Brian and Blake laughing like they six years old and were on a sugar high.

I cried for several minutes. Once I stopped crying, well I ended up crying more, and more tears came down than the previous time before.

From all my energy being drained from crying, I ended up falling fast asleep.

***

I heard beeps in all different tones and paces, but that was all.

I decided to open my eyes, to see where the hell I was. And it seemed to me that I have ended up in a hospital.

When I looked around the room to take a scan, I saw my dad sitting on the chair, and Blake was sitting next to him.

They were both sound asleep, but damn they looked uncomfortable. I had no idea where Brian was, but I was for sure thankful for Blake and my dad staying by my side.

Blake is a bitch, and is dating Chloe, but deep down he has my back and cares for me. He is by my side, minus him shoving me in the closet.

Actually now that I think about it, Brian is the one who actually shoves me in the closet. Blake just kinda goes along with it. Which is still terrible, but at least he isn't the one doing all of it...Brian is the one doing it all.

***

What seemed like forever, but really was only ten minutes, I saw nurses and doctors coming into my room. Normally I would close my eyes, but I didn't because I was still in shock from not hearing anything besides the beeping noises.

I saw the people in their scrubs talking, but I still could only see it. I couldn't hear them actually talking.

I noticed they didn't wake my brother and dad up either, which I don't consider nice or rude. They should know I am awake, and alive. But I am not sure they have had much sleep, so it's nice of the nurses and doctors to let them continue sleeping.

One nurse gave my a piece of paper that asked, "Can you hear me?"

I shook my head no, and she was kind enough to write what happened on a different piece of paper, to inform me what was going on.

The piece of paper said, "My name is Nurse Kelly, but you can call me Kelly for short. You overdosed on a medication that was not yours, and was prescribed for your father. Your brother, Blake, found you on your bathroom floor bleeding. He called 911 and informed us of what happened."

I stopped reading for a second, because I started to think about what did happen. I tried to remember why I took my dads prescribed pills.

Then I remembered all of the messages kids were sending me. I remembered what happened with Rose.

Then I questioned myself of the Alec thing. I didn't know if that actually happened or if it was just a dream. Possibly hillutionations? I am just glad it is now over.

I continued reading the note Kelly gave to me, "When you overdosed, you fell and cracked your head open. The surgeons had an emergency surgery for your brain bleed. We are not completely surprised that you cannot hear us, but we also aren't a hundred percent sure if you'll get your full hearing back or not."

When I read the last sentence, I started to cry.

This time, crying was different. Because I felt the pain, I just couldn't hear it.

Nurse Kelly went to wake up Blake and Dad, but I wanted her to let them sleep. So I tried to clap my hands together, but I could not move my right one.

I then tried to say something like stop or wait, but she woke them up anyway. I had no idea if I did make noise or not, because I couldn't hear anything to begin with. And clearly she didn't hear anything either cause she woke them up. Unless the noise was so quiet from me being so exhausted, I wasn't really for sure.

When I saw the look on my dad's face, I could just see how happy he was that I was awake.

On the back of the paper Kelly gave to me, I tried to ask them how long I was asleep for.

I was right handed, and on drugs, so it was very bad handwriting. But luckily they could read it.

She gave me the paper back, and I read, "three weeks."

I gulped, and then started choking.

That is when I realized I had something in my throat. But I couldn't breathe.

Nurse Kelly came over behind me, and started pressing on my stomach to stop me from choking, and luckily it was fine. Once I could breathe again, I had a scratch in my throat which I believed I could handle.

I couldn't hear, I couldn't speak, I couldn't move my left hand, and I didn't know where Brian was.

Maybe he was just a terrible brother, but you would think he would be here. Blake was there! Why wasn't Brian?

I then looked at my dad and Blake, and just saw how worn out they were. They didn't look too healthy either. My dad looked worse, from having more swollen eyes. But yet again he is much older and over fifty years old.

I would have tried to talk to them, but I couldn't. I was too tired. I didn't want to move. So instead I decided to go back to sleep.

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Authors Note:

Hi I hope you enjoyed this chapter, sorry for making y'all wait for a while. I wanted to finish up school and just take a little bit of a break. I am back now and I will have chapter six out soon. It would mean a lot if you voted for each chapter, left comments (cause I want to know what I can improve on and I just want to know your opinion about the storyline so far), and possibly share the book with your friends. :)

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